kim-be the way I love it

friendship

2010-01-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

It has been so long since I last blogged.
I am back from states for more than 2 months already.
It is good to be back home with family and friends and definitely my favourite foodies.
However, the experience I had, the memories I owned will stays vividly with me.

The people I met, the friends I made are so interesting and real.
Not that those who are around me are not, but the friendship is so different.
We all are people coming from all over the world, we all have different cultures, different accents, different colours and thinking.
Yet, everyone are so ready to accept you and make you their friends.
No prejudice.
Everyone is so sincere, the fun I had was incredible light and joyful.
I am lucky that I met these people who are constantly dear to my heart. :)

We have been friends.
Or are we not?
There is nothing wrong with the friendship?
It is always give and take.
Just give, and take?
It is always many of you and little of me.
It has been so long, you have been constantly telling me how much you appreciate me as a friend.
You said you want to do so much for me.
The supposed sending off of flight, the supposed picking up flight, the supposed cookies, the supposed gifts for my attachment, the supposed birthday present, and supposed gifts from your oversea trips.

Many times, you told me the reason for the impossible mission for accomplish them.
I do understand.
I really do.
Till now, it doesn't matter anymore.
Because, I do have eyes.
I can see.
I do have ears.
I can hear.
Your current friends are more important.
You are constantly doing things to cheer them up, to make them happy.
Maybe there are friends that you are more willing to keep.
All my supposed, you have done it for them.
Oh ya, it was impossible for me, not them.
If that is it, thank you. And goodbye.

what am i going to do?

2009-09-24T01:14:00.000+08:00

I have been so lazy coming online and blog. =S
It has been a really busy months recently but the parks is slowing down recently..

It has been less than a week to be with Disney.
6months program is going to be over already?
My god.
I have been seeing people joining Spaceship Earth and leaving at the same time.

I have so much emotions in me today.
Seeing the video that Sean (the Irish man) made makes me miss all the lovable people I met suring this period of time.
I won't want to think of the departure because I am the only one leaving Spaceship Earth this time.

Well, I am going to New York after the program. After California, it is my next agenda to visit New York. It is so much of cost.
Living in States is not what you may think as a cheap living.
Food, transportation, accommodation and miscellaneous expenditure?
My god. I don't have sufficient money to do everything here.
Till now, I have not get the souvenirs for people?
How how?
And even my pay is coming in.. It is not sufficient..
*please have money to drop from the sky for me*

Movie marathon

2009-07-07T04:07:00.000+08:00

After the UO outing, the next day Sarah, Jasmine, Yen and Peis went to Vista Way to have Wendy's before Peis went to work while the rest of us head down to Downtown Disney for Movie.

We watched the proposal, transformer and 3D UP.
The movies were really really good!
However, all of us were suffering from headache for watching the movies all at one go.

Mentioning 3D UP, I watched it the second time with the girls.
The first time I went to watch UP was with Rou Bing afther we went bring the UO people to Disney World to play on the 2nd day.

We departed with them at Hollywood Studios and we proceed to Downtown Disney.
We dined in Rain Forest Cafe and the food was super!
The seafood was really fresh and tender.
The steak was well cooked and not over done. Nice!
They have very good service too. We told the server that we need the food to be serve quickly as we are rushing for movie and he was really patient with us and do his best to speed up our dinning process.

We walked from one end of Downtown Disney to another and it took us less than 10 minutes.
When UP started, I was already crying.
And throughout the whole show, I cried more.
It was a really touching yet inspirational movie though it might not be real but it really thought me something that everyone should learn.
Sometimes we have to let go to gain something else. =)

UO outing

2009-07-06T14:22:00.001+08:00

Sarah, Pei Rong, Yen, Jasmine and I went over to UO to play.

We woke up at 7am!
The first thing we did in the morning was to Mcdonalds for breakfast.
We missed the Lynx buses and took IRide down to Days Inn instead.
We alighted at the wrong place Days Inn property but it could be a blessing in disguise as the property we reserved was actually next to a jail.

Thanks Hui Ying for bringing us around UO and provided us with a fast entrance solution. =)

We managed to cover the major rides such as Jurassic Park River Adventure, Popeye, Spider-Man, Hulk, Seuss Landing and etc.
However, I was extremely tired.
I slept during lunch and when the rest were shopping in the day.

The rest were doing some shopping over at Betty Boop and the other UO Souvenir shop when Shu Hui, Sylvia, Renee and Pauline came over and meet us after their work.

We were supposed to have dinner together but everyone from Disney was so tired and we headed back to Days Inn to rest.

The next day, we had China Buffet!
The chinese food definitely cannot be able to compare with mum's cooking or Singapore food but it isn't that bad for a change.
After that, we went to shop at one weird store and bought quite a few items at a very low prices. =D

Once we reached home, we continue slacking,eating strawberries and cherries.

20th birthday

2009-07-06T13:37:00.000+08:00

This is my first time I celebrated my birthday away from home.
I cannot do what I used to do. The movies, kbox, buffets, shopping and picnic.

I wasn't expecting much as I'm away from most of my family and friends but I really enjoyed this birthday.

I had my advance birthday dinner with the Disney folks at house of blues after class on Monday.
On the 10th, Sylvia and Shu Hui came over to my place with a home made cake! =D
I had a red Adidas bag from my Sarah, Yen and Jasmine for birthday! All of us have a similar bag! =)

On the 11th, we went over to UO and play! I had fun and we watched Blue Man Show.
It is a really good show. The way the men are able to inject music, art, science and humor without any oral or written communication between them.

After that at night, we went over to Roxy club to dance. Hahas..
It is my first time clubbing over here, the crowd over there was low as everyone was more interested in the final match of Magic vs Lakers.
And Magic lost the game and Shu Hui was so upset that she has no mood to dance.

On the 12th, Sylvia and I went to IHop to eat pancakes! It was really good. =D
They have free flow of latte, mocha and regular coffee too.
After that, we went to Prime Outlet and began our shopping spree.

I have spent so much recently.
I bought VS, papaya, fcuk, AX, coach, rue21, forever 21 and Gap.
I went online shopping at American Eagles, A&F and Aldo.
I'm so so broke now.

3 more days to go

2009-06-08T22:58:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging frequently.
It has been a busy week with all those planning for this and that.

I cooked lunch for Jasmine yesterday and she said it was delicious. =D Hahas..
For the matter of fact that I don't always cooking in Singapore, the dishes that I cooked are pretty decent actually. At least, they are edible and not charred.
Mummy! I have your genes for cooking! Hahas.. Not as wonderful as a cook that she is because I am clumsy that I had myself burnt while cooking.

It is 8 of June 2009.
In 3 more days, I will be turning 20 and itting the big "2".
This birthday is so different from the ones I had from the previous years.
It is something more tone down and less friends to celebrate. Hahas.. I used to celebrate my birthday for a few days going out, shopping, eating, movie-ing and many other activities.
Yet, over here I don't know how I want my birthday to be celebrated.
Something simple sound good.

My favourite birthday activity: sprung onto my dad and mum's room once the clock strike 12am.
Mummy and Daddy!
Where is my Han's fruit cake for birthday?
Where is my birthday kisses? *I INSIST*
Jie and Kor, what are you guys giving me for birthday?
Where are we eating for dinner? Bai Mee Fen again? =) Can I have Da Tou?
I miss my family. So weird celebrating my birthday away from them.

Will people still remember it is my birthday when I am in states? I hope they will. =)

THANKS SARAH, JASMINE AND YEN FOR THE BIRTHDAY CARD!
IT IS SO SWEET OF YOU GIRLS!
LOVESSS!!

tiring

2009-06-02T11:54:00.000+08:00

Sunday was a bad day for me.
I was supposed to report at 8.45am but I reached there at 8am so that i can buy my lunch from the cafeteria.
And it only opens at 10am, someone told me it opened at 8am. =.=
I was too early to do anything.

Later in the day, I was working at the unload. There was a metal piece protuding at the side and it torn my shoes and socks.

Am I doing the right thing at work?
I am doing my best to obtain the maximum satisfaction of every guest at work however many just simply don't appreciate it at all.
Maybe the technical best is not what the guests presume as the best for them.
However, when some guests have special requests or insist that things to do it their way, I usually let them.

"But they will come back to me and as me why isn't my face in the picture?"
"Because there is only 2 face for each seat."

"Oh, don't you find this information very familiar? I bet the people at load repeat it so many times."
Or, "Why I can't sit with my friends and family?"
"Oh, beacuse they just mention 2 in their party and I guess he fogotten to invite you?"
"Oh, because they don't find a point to wait for you?"

Sometimes I wish I can say all these to them. But it will make me not professional anymore.
It makes me feel that I should shortchange my services to them as not many guests really appreciate the cast members' effort.

Things are getting blur.
Once again.

miss Cranky

2009-05-27T01:48:00.000+08:00

Hello dear.

It has been so long since we last met.

The day you saw Shu Hui & Sylvia leaving at the airport you cried.

Then the next week was me leaving.

Thanks for being such a sweet soul.

You company me to satisfy my clubbing crave with me till the club closed.

Even though you were working early the next morning, you were there with me.

The next day, after work, you were at my place packing my stuff for me.

You even bought me sunflower and that sweet written photograph note.

Even though you were so tired, you sent my flight.

Thanks for being there.

And please don't worry.

We will have all those crazy fun together when I return to Singapore.

Miss you.

With love, hugs & kisses.

Kim.

the end.

2009-05-22T15:05:00.000+08:00

I was watching Gossip Girl today.
Season 2 is officially ended.
I don't know why, but I teared while watching the last 2 episods.

Somehow as I watched it, my liking for the characters changed.
I like Blaire and Bass more than Nate and Serene.
Though this is just a good script writing, it feels good to see people with strong ego and hard front are finally getting their inner feelings out to the right people.

Love.
It is complicating.
Especially with characters like Bass and Blaire.
Their similar yet different personalities.
They go through a lot to get to the end.
Just sweet.

"xoxo. you know you love me"

high

2009-05-11T02:35:00.001+08:00

I love working at the greeter. Getting out in the sun and talking to the guests out there.
The load rotation is fun and unload rotation is not that bad too.
I enjoyed working today.
I chatted with the guests, answering their questions, talking about Singapore and I learnt more about my colleagues.

I am just tired today. I walked long today. 12.45pm to 9.30pm shift.

I went to Chili's today. The food is affordable and good.
I like it there. =)
I had this crazy night out with Therese, Syakra and Sonja.
We were laughing the hell out of us at the restaurant.
I know so much more now.
And we were dancing in the car to poker face.
It is nice to feel real and to enjoy myself.

I know I am not.
I'm confused.
How I wish I am watching it outside.

Happy Mother's Day!

2009-05-10T00:21:00.001+08:00

I called home today.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
I can sense the happiness in her voice when I called daddy's hp just now. =)
I asked them what they did for Mother's day and it was the usual dinner.
She saw an empty seat at the table and she thought of me. =(
I miss the good food again.

I'm glad that everyone is alright at home, I'm alright here in states too.
Thanks daddy for your "gift". =D
MUMMY & DADDY, I LOVE YOU!

Khaki, please.
Places to visit and things to be done are accumulating and do remember them and we will go when I'm back!

I know the truth.
When all the while I know my sixth sense was right even though truth was not revealed.
There was occasions when I thought the lies were true.
However, the truth arrived when I have given up knowing it.
It takes awhile to digest it and let it settled in.
Decision on what actions to be taken and how to carried out.

All these while, I don't know why.
Why you have to lie to me.
Whether are we together or not.
Seriously, words from you, I don't know what is what anymore.
But, it doesn't matter already.

twisted

2009-05-06T02:17:00.002+08:00

I think it is different this time.
It is weird how some things are not working out.
Uncertainty makes people upset.
But in the end of the day.
Somehow, somewhat..
I'm smiling. =)

why

2009-04-29T02:53:00.000+08:00

I feel weird.
I couldn't concentrate on what I was supposed to do.
Keep losing focus at work.
Sometimes, it feels like being nice to others has yourself being taken advantage of.
Their oversight become my mistakes.
They thought I was wrong when I told them that the I have written the main thing in black and white.
Can't they read?
They read the thing yet they didn't understood the basic form of alphabets there?
Or they just know how to have fun and thinking that they are way better than what they thought they were?
And thinking that I am the one who made the mistake and it wasn't them.
Please have the basic respect of apologising.
And by the way, I hate accusation.
Argh.

Please keep everything you have to yourself.
I don't need any of those attention.
I'm not here to have you people screwing my life.
Thank you.

No anticipate = no expectation.
Thus, leading to minimal disappointment.
Though things ain't bad but it is still a long way till the end.

If there was some form of assurance.

Been in Orlando a few weeks

2009-04-24T15:39:00.001+08:00

I have been at Disney a few weeks.
There are a few interesting happening.

Been spending alot of money on food here.
The Walmart, Asian Market, Publix and sometimes the eating out.
I'm really lucky to stay with 4 course mates.
They are really nice people, making an effort to make it as homely as possible. =)
We have been cooking pretty frequent as the food here are really expensive and unhealthy too.

My job has been fine too. The weather can get really sunny and windy when I'm working as a greeter fro Spaceship Earth. My colleagues are pretty friendly and nice. I managed to work with people my age which makes working much more fun.
I'm learning Spanish at the moment! I feels that it is a sexy language and many people here speak Spanish, thus learning it makes my work assisting them easier. =)

It is inevitable for this.
I miss my family.
I miss being pampered.
I miss mum's cooking.
Here, I am afraid I didn't have any food to eat as it isn't as convenient as driving down or walking down to the places near home.
I have to do my own laundry.
I have to take care of myself.
*Praying that she will get well and able to discharge from the hospital.*

Eating home cooked food.

2009-04-15T12:57:00.005+08:00

I cooked dinner yesterday!

And today, Sarah, Sean, Yen Ju cooked.
But there were like Sarah, Sean, Yen Ju, Rou Bing, Woan Tyng, Benjamin and I were having dinner together.
Though it was like less than 2 weeks we had dinner together but it feel so long. =(
We had fun! Eating the pretty good food together plus the gossiping and complaining to do!

Oh ya. I think I spent a lot here. That day I went to buy my facial products (bath & body works), I bought a top (wet seal), moisturizer and body foam (crabtree and evenlyn). Then I had bear papa and mango drink (spent like 6usd), lunch I had pizza and salad (8usd) and the bus rides was like almost 10usd. Grrr.
That day I went to polo to buy some stuffs as there were additional discount. =x

But only the shirts and black polo tee are mine. The rest aren't. I just help people buy and I'm broke! =(

I passed my assessment!

2009-04-15T00:57:00.001+08:00

I have been doing my training over at Spaceship Earth, Epcot last week and I had my assessment on Sunday. On Sunday, I woke up an hour late! I was 15 minutes late. But luckily my examiner is Gary, a very nice colleague. =)

I was assessed on whether I can do the tasks in the attraction, a test and an interview with the manager.
When I was performing the tasks, there were some hiccups but nothing big happened.
But when I was done with my assessment paper, Gary went through the paper to grade it.
I saw him drawing many question marks on my paper and I was confused. I cannot believe that I made so much mistake even though I didn't check through my answers. Then, I realised that my answers are correct! Just that the answer sheet is wrong!
Hahas. I only seen the paper once before my assessment, and I managed to score 75 out of 78!

And, I passed my assessment!
So I'm officially a cast member of Disney that no longer a trainee.

Yesterday, working alone is scary. It was like you were "chained" for a while and once it was removed, you are a little lost of what you should do.
Something happened. Instructions were not given clearly, the followers obeyed blindly and ended up a futile effort made.

eve of my attachment work start.

2009-04-05T00:05:00.001+08:00

I had my Disney traditions class today.

The class teaches the Disney's past, present and future.

Their presentation is good especially the videos.

There are so many things about Disney that I didn't know before.

1: Walt Disney is a creative and handsome man.

2: He is a wonderful dad as he wants to build a place( Disney theme park) for his daughter to have fun and be happy.

3: The own touchdown, abc, ESPN.

4: American Idol is over at Hollywood Studio at Disney World.

5: Shows like Desperate House Wife, Brother & Sister, Grey Anatomy and many more were theirs.

As their Cast Member(employee) we are entitled to many discount like the Nike Factory Outlet over at the Premium Outlet.

We have free entry to all the parks and free entry to our 3 friends a day to the parks too!

Each park ranges prices about from 50-80usd.

And Disney World has like about 8parks.

It is so expensive. =X

I'm stating my first day of work tomorrow at Spaceship Earth over at the Epcot theme park.

I'll be working from 1315-2200.

Rou Bing is working there too and she wants to see how the uniform for her attraction looks like. =)

I hope everything go well for me tml! pray hard for me people, wish me all the best. =)

Goodnight. =)

What a long day.

2009-04-04T01:57:00.000+08:00

I woke up like 7.15am today again to attend the Disney orientation. But we have the early release as the China students, 60 of them, has a talk with someone and we,12, Singaporeans are free to have a 2 hours break before we get our work details.

I hereby announced where will I be working at Disney:

At the Epcot, spaceship Earth. But I'm unsure of the specific roles.

My schedule is like tomorrow, Saturday: I’m going to be at traditions (Lesson for Disney) 1.30pm to don’t know what time.
Sunday (5th April) & Monday (6th April): on job training from 13:15 to 22:00
Tuesday (7th April): 08:00 to 12:30
Wed & Thurs: off
Friday (10April), Saturday (11th April) & Sunday (12th April): 06:45-15:30.

May I be bless! =)

I saw this bird crossing the road near my complex during the short lunch break we have during the orientation.

Heading down to Disney Downtown.

While we were searching for food, I saw this 7eleven petrol station. I didn't know they are such a diversified company!

This is the place where they served fantastic seafood! The bill is like 177usd plus. But each and everyone of us enjoyed the dinner! We even met a disney cast member there and she offer to drive us out of disney to the Asian market, hair salon or what if we need to becuase her previous room-mate was from Singapore and she enjoyed her company! Way to go!

After Dinner, we went to Premium Outlet. So many branded stuffs on discount.

OMG.

In life, don't read too much.

Think less.

Bother less.

Expect less.

Happier.

Arrived in Orlando.

2009-04-03T00:52:00.001+08:00

The intership has a tour over at Washington for a few days with the Dr Becker, the liasion officer over here for us. He has been a really good teacher and guide to compromise the plans we want and do his best in satisfying us and at the same time put our best interest at heart. However, we won't be seeing him till May. I'll miss him. He is really a wonderful, understanding and caring person.

Today, we started our Disney orientation program. We were briefed on the basic ground rules.

It started since morning 8.45am to 2pm. After that, we went back to our apartment to take a break. We tried washing our stuffs. =X. 60mins to dry. Lucky the laundry is just next to us.

We went Wal-mart today and buy our stuffs! I finally get my pillow and my blanket. Last night was really cold, I wore long sleeves plus my jacket to sleep. We bought food and essential stuffs, bring them pack home and we have a cook over at my house gathering. =D

The food was fine. Yen Ju cooked noodles (from sg) to go with Pei Rong's sambal chilli(from sg) or go with my miso soup(from sg). Then Wan Tyng and Jo brought their popcorn(Wal-mart), many of the left over food from her previous room mates over. Rou Bing contributed her buffalo wings, Sarah and Pei Rong wipped up eggs and sausage, and the guys brought over their bacon and sausages to cook.

For dessert, I shared my 10usd strawberries with them. Hahas.. I didn't even know how much it cost but I bought it becuase I want to eat it. =D Not that good though. Korean strawberries taste so much better! Wan Tyng bought chocolate pudding too. =)

Richard, Jasmine, Sean and I did some cleaning out here and there and with everyone else doing a little here and there. some did cooking before hand too.

Everyone is quite involve with the meal. Contributing food and effort! Good!

Mum called me today! =D I miss her and she keep asking me to take care.. I miss her. Love her

taking note.

2009-04-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

This will be the last day I'm at Washington and we will be flying to Orlando tomorrow.
Today was a pretty good tour.
We went to Hampton University today. We were given talks about being in attachment in Disney, the modules we will be taking and how we can do for our touring around states after our attachment ends.
The campus is pretty. Really pretty.
We met some of their students and they are very nice and friendly.
Bought some souvenirs from the university book store. =D
After the tour, we went to AT&T and have our prepaid card. It works!
So if anyone wants my number, let me know. =)

For pictures, see them in facebook? Because it isn't very easy to upload all the photos. =X

For dinner, we went to a Thai restaurant and had pretty good food. We even met the former secretary of states. He is a humorous and wonderful man. =)
Back to the hotel, everyone is so tired!
Yet, we have to pack up all our stuffs to go to Orlando already.
We have to meet like 9.15am tml again? =(
I have been wakig up early these days!

I need to blog to keep a record of what I am going to do when I get back home with khaki.
1: Gold class movie
2: Cookie museum
3: Teochew porridge
4: A very nice place that you went and you want to bring me there too!
5: More movies!
6: Majiong sessions at my brother's place.
7: Bring me to places with good food (but not getting fat!)

And I believe there is more to come!
Taking note. =)

1st post from states

2009-03-30T01:52:00.000+08:00

Okay. The previous post are posted in Washington!
So people, I'm officially in States.
Stay at a different hotel today.
Been touring the whole day in DC.
Been to the white house, the air and space museum, the art museum, the american history museum and the natural history museum!

The weather is pretty drastic. It is like 9-11 degrees in the morning and night while 5-10 degree higher during the noon.
The food? It is horrible. Both chinese and western is bad. =(
Too sweet or too salty. =(

It is 1.50am and I have to get to bed now! Waking up at 7.30am for the tour again!
Shall upload photos soon! =)
Night people!

Enjoyed myself!

2009-03-30T01:41:00.001+08:00

Hahas..I went for movie with nsf on Thursday. We watched the confession of shopaholic.
We bought so much snacks into the cinema! Damn hungry!

After that we rushed over to Clarke Quay to meet Peiling, Elf (Pei Ling's friend) and Pei Fen; and head down to double O.

Nsf just went ahead and order 5 jer ge boom (not sure how it is spelt, the red bull drink eh.)
So I was forced to drink. =X After that, he went to order another 2 jugs of vodka. =S
I have been clubbing quite awhile but I club a different way that day. =) Sometimes different is fun? hahas.. I had so much fun satisfying my crave. =X
My company has things early in the morning on friday and the agreed to club with me till 3am! =D
THANKS PEEPS! FOR BEING SO SWEET!

Friday.
I went back to henderson in the morning with nsf to pick up my fujitsu laptop from service!
Erm.. he missed his run because we club till too late. Sorry. =X
After that we head down to harbour front to attend the canon camera workshop with lina.
While he slack at coffee house read the book. =X

I shopped at vivo. A lot. =X
Bought my shoes and other necessity hahas.

Den we head down to Chomp Chomp for dinner! We ordered too much. Or more like he order too much that we couldn't finish! =X.

I met Peiling and Pei Fen again. Head down my house and help me with the luggage packing. =X
Yeah. Last minute packing.
Then, sister drove us to brother's place for majiong session!
And nsf came along too.
I cracked his itouch. =X
And he lost money playing majiong. GUILT.

After majiong session, sister drove all of us plus kar yee cousin to the airport.
Daniel, Serene, VK, Fabian, David, Aldrin came to send me off at the airport too!
Serene and VK has to force themselves from the bed to come and gave me a sweet photo album!
Daniel tried to surpise me and drove to the airport.
Fabian was drunk but came.
David, got Aldrin to drive him over and he gave me a scarf.
It is so so handy!
Peiling gave me sunflower and photo!
While nsf gave me a book (yakuza) and a farewell card!

Thanks for everyone making and effort for coming down to send me off! =D
Photos will be upload soon!

PeoPle.

2009-03-26T03:33:00.002+08:00

I have been meeting people during the last week before I fly.

Initially, I wanted to stay at home, spend time with my family, do the packing and cleaning of the room. But it doesn't seem like it is going along as planned. =X

I met David yesterday. He accompanied me to do some errands and last minute shopping in town. Elanie came over and met him afterwards. =) Happy Birthday!

I was supposed to go eat beancurd over at Jalan Kayu but it was a last minute call so I'm having it on Thursday. =S

Today is a tiring day. I woke up early, brought the new laptop to school to install the programmes. I dislike eating in school due to the lack of variety but I had prata with M, he met me in school. He complained that I am leaving and he wants to meet up again before I go. So here I am! =)

Esther, Sylvia and Shu Hui. The pictures are for you guys. I know you girls will miss the pratas. Any Milo there?=X .There are egg, cheese, mushroom and bomb. We shall eat together again when you guys back alright? Or more like when I'm back.=) Hope you guys manage to find Chinatown there for Asian food.

We headed down to Henderson to get my old laptop fixed.

Why did I go Henderson instead of Funan? Well, I went Funan yesterday, but it will take a few days longer to get it fixed. Locating the service centre was a horror. No clear information from the fujitsu customer service nor signs around the area to identify the right direction.

From there, we took 167 home. I was really tired and I keep nagging that I am tired to him. =X

But, as the bus drove I enjoy the sights. There are familiar, interesting and odd places.

SG isn't that boring actually. =)

Once I'm home, I'm really tired. I chatted online for awhile and fallen asleep.

I woke up about 7pm as I'm Amos for coffee at Thomson Plaza Starbucks.

It has been so long I last see him.

Seated at the smoking corner. Sial la, I have so many smoker friends. His intake at starbucks today like 6,7 sticks.

My Vanilla Latte =)

We chatted till Starbucks closes and we cabbed home, like 12 am? Hahas.

Talking to him made me realised and learnt a lot of things. About the studying and working environment of the hospitality industry. His signature act blur, I know what you are upto and I know what you mean smile and talking to him definitely makes me laugh like mad.

I miss John too. Hope to see him soon when I'm back. ; )

Tommorow..

Meeting Cherlyn tommorrow over at Yishun, going back to Northland to know the surprise Godpa have for me.

Plus, movie with nsf. We can go eat the beancurd too. =)

Seafood!

2009-03-23T22:42:00.006+08:00

I met Godpa and Rochester for dinner.
We had dinner over at Owen Seafood Restaurant. =D
It has been like a year since I last met Roach. The last time was he was doing relief teaching over at northland.
And he thought I am going to states for good and not coming back. Hahas.. No worries, you will see me in like 6months time with your present back!
These are the pictures and I forgoten the deep fried soon hock fish. =(

A cool umbrella from Roach eh. =)

Sometimes you can be so unreasonable. What do you expect me to say? You are constantly doubting, blaming, making your own assumptions and scolding without questioning the real situation.

The race to the witch mountain.

2009-03-23T01:02:00.002+08:00

I had movie with nsf.

We were deciding which movie to watch and "The Confessions Of The Shopaholic".

He booked the tickets for it but we ended up looking at the wrong date. =X

It is only showing on the 25th March and today is only 23rd March.

Luckily, we managed to swap the tickets to the "The Race To The Witch Mountain". =D

The movie is surprisingly pretty good.

Some of the filmed angles are pretty confusing especially when the taxi was chased by others.

But the script was pretty well written!

They are able to inject humor and funny scarcasm in the least expected ways.

Nsf, please be grateful of some ghostly figure to bring you an extra specs to watch the movie!
I'm nice kay! =D

Hahas.. But thanks for the companion, I found another movie khaki!

EA girls outing! =)

2009-03-21T22:49:00.001+08:00

I met Desmond on Thursday and we had dinner together and did some catch up. =)

I met my secondary school classmates on Friday!

Stephanie, Shanmin, Curina, Kellyn and Sharon.

1st stop: Newton Circus for dinner.

We had like sting ray, satay, oyster omelette, kai lan, baby octopus and sugar cane drink! =D

2nd stop: United Square for Ben & Jerry's ice cream!

3rd stop: Thomson Plaza's Starbucks to chill.

It has been great going out with them. So much catching up to do, so much relieve of secondary reminiscence!

Center parted hair! ( I look just like how I look like in Primary School =X)

Bangs!

I'm happier now =)

2009-03-19T02:47:00.003+08:00

Thanks M for accompanying me down to Orchard today. That's nice of you. =)

I met him today. There is a lot of things to get off my chest.

I asked a lot of things and I gotten my answers.

We chatted about our lives and future plans too. It has been awhile since we talk or see each other.

I just want to get everything off my chest to be happier. Nothing else.

At least, finally. Things are ended in a better note.

We met at the wrong time? Or the wrong person?

It doesn't matter. We are friends now. =)

That's what we want. =)

I met Johnson again. =D

John never fail to cheer me up just by behaving his usual self.

He was late! But it is okay because I was later the other time we met. =X

We had fried mars bar while deciding where to have our dinner.

We decided to dine at Sushi Tei, Paragon since both of us want to drink soup!

We had like scallops, soup, katsu don rice double dessert of black sesame ice cream and chocolate waffled ice cream.

This is the 2nd time we dined there. The 2nd time we are so damn full and left Sushi Tei only when they are closing. =X

After dinner, I saw the playground outside Sushi Tei and I can't help myself and ask him to take pictures together there. It is like childhood memories where we will hang out over at the playground. Hahas.

Hahas.. I just can't stop chatting with him so he accompanied me to take the bus home from Somerset.

He was staring at the bus suddenly while we were sitting at the railing. I thought there was some babe in there so I asked him what is he staring and he replied;

J: " I was looking at the reflection of the bus arrival timing ( the bus arrival board was inline with us so we couldn't see the bus arrival timing at all) on the bus."

K: "Wa, so smart ah?!"

J: "Of course la, I am handsome Johnson!"

K: "Hahas.. Right, so what time is 167 arriving?"

J:" Erm. I didn't manage to see. " =X

K:" Wahahas.. You pose so nice I thought that you manage to see it la."

J: *Pai seh look on his face.* =D

He alighted the bus and sent me home by walking with me to my estate today.

First time, a guy friend send me home all the way till my estate sial.
He said it was too late for a girl to walk home to some ulu pandan home and he says it is okay if there is people who wants to rape him as long as that rapist is a lady! =X

I'll be seeing him on Saturday and Sunday and he is playing hard for me. =)

It has been so long since I last supported his matches in secondary school. Our friendship started since secondary 1 till now. I am glad that we are able to maintain it. =) This time round, it will be me going oversea and buying you back gift + birthday persent!

I am really thankful of all those friends that I have.To those who stand by me when I am lost, in the lurch, being a fool, in need and not leaving me behind. But walking, guiding me next to them, You don't need so many friends, you just need those real friends. =)

Neighbours' outing

2009-03-19T01:13:00.001+08:00

I was skype conferencing with Serene and Simon before heading out.

That was fun and people are practising for me when I am away in States? Hahas.

Lina, Pen (Sue Ping) and I met out yesterday.Pen is having her attachment at the moment and we met for dinner. We had dinner over at Pasta Mania, dessert at Mac and Pen had fruits over at food court.

It has been so long since we last met can.

And as usual, she is one blur sotong that can be easily tricked.

Hahas. Does all borned in 1990 and study in Chong Fu are like this, Shu Hui? =D

We talk, we laugh, we snap shots. =)

Pen & I

Lina & Pen

Lina & I

Shots by Photograhpy Pen

Pen, I am convinced that you are a pretty good photographer. =D

fuck you.

2009-03-17T00:53:00.002+08:00

Fuck. I found out something.
I always thought that people sterotype you.
But I guess I am just so dumb.
You and your lies.
Seriously, from the bottom of my heart.
I detest you.
You are so sick and so gross.
A leopard that never changes its spot.

Tired.

2009-03-16T23:30:00.001+08:00

Reached home about 7.20am on Sunday morning.
I'm so tired. =X
I slept till 3pm and went over to have dinner with brother, sister-in law and sister.
Played majiong till 1.30am and chatted on the phone till 5.30am.

Chatting with you made me realised many things.
And really, I was surprised about what has happened.
I thought he might change.
It was dumb of me thinking that way.
Thought I was really lousy.
Seriously, he is more into himself than anyone else.
He rather hurt others than having himself tarnish.
Believing and trusting him in the first place was a mistake.
For that bitch. I don't understand the thrill out of it.
I don't regret.
Because from this, I learnt.
Never be a fool again. Not again.
Thanks for waking me up again.

Woke up early on Monday at 10.30am, to be daddy's little girl and help out with the delivery.
It was raining today and I was like drenched so many times getting in and out of the van. =(
After I reached home I was out meeting Jia to help him with his selection of school for his studies.
We met at Great World City, dinned at Kenny Rogers.
We proceed to ERC Institute and listened to what the counsellor adviced.
Their progress like getting a Master(when you already acquire a diploma of the similar course) in 2 years sound tempting to pick up but I still have some doubts about the schools. =X
After that, we cabbed home as I am really really tired from deprivation of sleep.
Thanks for the dinner and ride. =)

Sentosa with great company!

2009-03-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

Sentosa!

It has been ages since I saw them.

Fabian, Leonard, Leon, Wei Quan, Jie Wen, Yun Tong, Sheralyn, Lih Wee, Tian Yew, Bing Ting, Marcus, Azmil, Vincent Kang, Serene and Square! =)

Breakfast over at mac and proceed down Siloso Beach.

We played volleyball, frisbee, soccer and captain ball.

Seriously, playing against the NSF men is a tough job. =X

They are so quick, fast and fit. =(

Bathed and went to makan over at the harbour front hawker center.

I shared carrot cake, char kuey tiao, orh jian and fish soup with Vk and Serene.

Then, we proceed down Ritz Carlton loading bay to catch up with some of the staffs there.

Dinner is over at the Marina Square food court, having laska, ice kacang and steal desserts from others. =D

We went to Clarke Quay, Mama Carribean Pub with the rest.

This is the first time I watch soccer match with my friends.

Sisi and Hui Xin joined us too.

Manutd vs Liverpool. 1-4.

I supported Manutd but they lost. =(

But Torres is really cute. =X

I rushed over to city hall to meet Pei Fen and proceed down to Changi Airport.

We were there like 12am while the girls' (Sylvia, Shu Hui and Esther) flight is at 6am. =(

We tour around the 3 terminals of the airport plus the slack at starbucks, sipping my vanila latte. =)

Met PeiLing before meeting the girls at the airport.
PeiLing is so sweet, she bought roses and a picture of us for the 3 of them.

ShuHui is as usual. Still being a blur sotong and Sylvia is like wants to enter the gantry soon as always, as she wants to buy duty free product. And Esther is busy taking photos with her friends. =)

I'll miss you girls..

Unexpected IT fair

2009-03-15T18:25:00.001+08:00

Friday. I was back at IT fair again.

Daniel accompanied me to be my laptop consultant.

I was damn excited la!

I saw my godbro, LIM YONG LONG!

It has been ages I see him!
At least I managed to see him before I fly off. =D

While we were still choosing the laptop Man Chun arrived.

So in the ended, I managed to buy my laptop.

Lenovo, Y330. A little heavy at 1.95kg but it is specs is pretty good that I am quite statisfied with the buy! =D

I bought webcam for mama and papa to see me too. =D

We waited for Shu hui to come over to get her stuffs at IT fair before we proceed to dinner at subway.

After IT fair I was really tired but Ricky cousin saw me tugging my laptop home ask me want to go for a movie.

It has been so long since we last met and chatted. Everyone has been so busy with their life recently. =(

We watched Watchmen and this movie made us have a thinking of what life really is.

Talking to him, makes me see life in another perspective.

Sometimes things is so simple and uncomplicated but we didn't realised it.

Work the hardest for what you want in life, anticipate the worst you will gain the highest satisfaction.

IT Fair

2009-03-13T02:26:00.002+08:00

My officially 100 post.

I went to do delivery with brother again.

Alighted over at Paragon to head my way down to Doby Ghuat as Shu Hui needed to get her handphone back from the service centre.

Met Sylvia and her mum over at Sun Tec City and we headed down to the IT fair!

1st stop: Canon and I bought Digital Ixus 95 IS with Lina.

She was with her mum to get the camera and she went home already.

Free gifts include: sd 8gd, case, digital kit bag(include cleaning kit), sd card reader, screen proctector and tripod. And now I have 2 free tripod.

2nd stop: We were over at Nikon. Shu Hui bought her camera.

Free gifts include: umbrella, case, screen protector and tripod too (I think).

3rd stop: Sony.

Sylvia bought T77.

She has the most free gifts: free printer with a few piece of papers, carrying case, 16gb memory card, mini tripod, screen proctector and cleaning kit. Very heavy too.

4th stop: level 6, the girls bought web camera and ear phones for skype but I still deciding whether do I need to get them yet.

5th stop: Doby Ghuat Mrt Station.

We met up with Pei Fen and waited for Pei Ling to arrive before we headed down to China Town.

6th stop: At Zhuang Yuan, a korean restaurant that I can't remember the korean name. (juan won? =X)

We ordered Seafood soup, fried rice cake with noodles, fried rice cake with chicken and vegetables, fried rice cake with fish cake and rice.

The meals there comes with 5 appetizer that can be refill and it has a tea and korean biscuit for you to "end" your meal. =D

Great food and company today! =D

Tomorrow, IT Fair again. I'm getting my laptop this time!

Marina

2009-03-11T01:17:00.002+08:00

I am a good little girl today.

I was dragged out of bed to do delivery with brother.

Did it twice today before I went to met Godpa for dinner.

He picked me up near my place, pick up Vanx from Yishun then Ancherle from Grand Copthrone.

We went to a boat over at Marina for dinner. Good food. =D

We had ribs, toasted turkey tortilla, baked potatoes with vegetables, spring roll, buffalo wings, brownie with ice cream and waffle ice cream.

We shared it alright. I'm not such a pig! =D

After that, we went to Marina Barrage for a walk. I never been there before but it looks damn nice.

Recommend for couples to go there. =)

There is the 7 storey chicken rice there (I know the famous chicken rice becuase I used to play badminton with Lina's family and we went there for dinner).

Lastly, we sang oldies all the way home!

Seriously, I love bond! Their bonus viva and victory track is damn nice!

Loving it!

The restaurant

The view

The Marina Barrage

Getting a good camera soon. A few more days and I have a few more new things. =D IT fair!!

JOHNSON!

2009-03-10T01:45:00.001+08:00

I met up with JOHNSON today!
As matter of fact, it slipped off his mind and luckily I reminded him.

I met him after his physio at Cineleisure. I was late for more than half an hour. =X
He got so hungry that he went BK to get something to eat. Hahas.

We bought tickets to watch role models.
Had lunch at pepper lunch and ice cream there.
After that, we had cookies cheese cake over at bakerzin.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHN in advance. =)
Birthday present? I'll make it special. Wait awhile eh. =)

We bought popcorn for the movie too. But seriously, please avoid buying it at level 6 because the salty ones has no taste at all. Argh.
The movie has loads of American jokes. Interesting movie.

After that, we past by Forever 21.
I have been eyeing on that cardigan for very long and finally bought it in a not so "legal" way. =X

We went to Borders to meet Shu Hui and Sylvia.
They were buying books and John finally found Eclipse.
I didn't know that he love reading it too.
I wanted to share the content of the last 2 books with him but i decided not to as finding out yourself by reading will be so much more fulfilling. =)
We finally took photos! I'm waiting for him to upload them!

And All of us headed back in train chatting away. =)

Thanks John, seriously I was moody and you lifted my mood.
It has been long since I ate so much.
Good mood comes with good appetite? Hahas.
It has been long since we met up and chat so much.
I laugh a lot too.
Enjoyed myself today.
I shall see ya on your competition eh? =)
And I will remember to pass you the ticket stub. I forgotten just now. =X

undeterminable

2009-03-09T02:39:00.000+08:00

I played majiong over at brother's place on Friday.
I won the 1st game but lost the 2nd one. =(

Brother drove me home the next morning.
Met David at my house bus stop and proceed to Han's to do the art work.
I miss doing art. When I was doing, I felt tranquil.

He accompanied me to Ritz today.
Finally, I'm back at work.
But working today, I had mixed feeling.
Things changes pretty much there.Insuifficent staffs for banquet, most of them were out for HSBC outside catering.

I saw Adeline, Kai Chi, Thiri, Yumi, Alywine the managers, Su An and Sop Tip today.
I chatted with Thiri and Sop Tip.
We have similiar views, feelings and conclusions on many things. =)
Sop Tip is a very considerate person.
I told him that I am going to Florida, Orlando for attachment and he offered to give me his aunt's contacts so that I have someone to look for in case of emergency there.
So sweet of him.
And his aunt operates Sushi's restaurant so I can go there for Japanese food! =)

In life, everyone seem like everyone else but actually not anyone is someone else.
We are different and are treated differently.
Many people give me the "are you serious look" when they know about it.
But is it because you guys sterotype the person or is it really that way?
I hope I can get rid of it. It is doing no good at all.
Sometimes I feel so lost.
Who am I? What kind of person am I? Just negatives.

Marley & Me

2009-03-03T22:07:00.002+08:00

I went to US embassy today and collected the visa.

Finally, all the documents are ready.

Met up with HC Yen Ru and Jasmine today to collect the visa but Jasmine was late so we went over to the embassy without her.

Met HB Sarah over at the embassy and went lunch together because I am hungry!
I'm like surviving on 1 single meal everyday. =(
Don't know why I just don't have the appetite.

Her company was great. =)
We watch Marley & Me today.

I was wondering why was this movie being recommended by many of my friends.
I know why now.
It is seriously damn touching.
I cried and smudged my mascara. Unglam. =X

The show reminds of Cat Cat, my british short haired cat that I had for eight years.
The memories we shared.
Like he loves cheesecake.
He will be there when I'm sad.
He will wait for my family to come home when we go out for dinner at the gate.
How lovable he is.
But he died. Chased by dogs and punctured his stomach.

In the movie, it says, who can makes you feel different, special and unique?
Marley is simple, he gave his love to his owner because they love him too.
If many things were just so simple. =)

knight in shining armour, where are you?

2009-03-03T11:44:00.002+08:00

Last Sunday, I was at Northpoint getting some stuffs from Sylvia and met M for lunch.
This time, it was me staring at him eating instead of the other way round.
Well, I didn't mean to do that, but just don't feel like eating.

After meeting M, I headed down to AMKHub to get more things and went home.

I have to reach the dinner venue about 6pm.
By the time I reached Clarke Quay, it was still raining.
No cab to be found, searching everywhere.
I even walked the wrong direction. =X

Thanks for picking me up, if not I think it will take me pretty long to get there.

Feel awkward there. Slightly lonely. But it is a wedding.
You don't expect to know everyone because you are one of the guests too.

The bride and groom are really loving.
Looking at their pictures, videos and behaviours really set me envious.
One day, I'll find my knight in shining armour.
He will give me all his love, faithfulness, honesty and trust?

Seriously, I need to go dating.
If not when can I meet my Mr Right? =X

When you are struggling in the water, you thought of life buoy.
Once it aids you to the land, you just dump it aside.

He just not that into you

2009-02-28T01:11:00.003+08:00

I chatted with an interesting one yesterday.

Today, I went to US embassy at 8AM to process my visa.
It is approved and I have to go back and get it on Tuesday.
Went town with Shu Hui to have lunch and she has to get her stuff.
I realised I have to do something.
So i did it.

I need something to affirm my thoughts.
I went to watch movie with M today.
Thanks for being so spontaneous with me. =)
We watched " He is not that into you".

That show is great I must say.
It was pretty close to heart.
Seeing how people thought things could work out but they didn't.
And those they thought they didn't but they actually did.

It is really sweet to know that guy like Jen's bf is such a sweet guy.
The guy seriously, love her that much that he only loves her.
He willingly wants to make her happy, so that he can be happy.
That is damn sweet.

Next, is Justin Long.
I never find him attractive.
But today, I did.
He is those guy that you thought he was a player.
But he was just afraid to try and a bold girl, who keeps trying to find love made him realised he deserve to be in love too. =)

Both couples are sweeet!

But the married couple story sound familiar.
They were dating and married after 7 years.
Sound as if they were happily in love.And the girl has very strong six sense, I will say.
She realised the difference, yet believe when the guy says it was nothing wrong.
She found something fishy, confronted the guy yet he insisted he isn't lying.
She believe again.
Tried to work out their relationship when she realised it was rocky.
She tried.

But in the end, she realised that everything was just a lie.
He lied. Lied to her.
She is a strong lady.
She found out.
She confronted.
Ask the man whether he wants to work out or leave.
He said he is willing to work it out (just surprised and guilty I guess).
She tried to work out the relationship.
So what did the man did?
Oh. He lied to her, went behind her back and smokes, lust after a young gir that he thought he was in love and at the same time tell his wife he is willing to work out, had sexual relationship with both ladies?
But he did nothing to improve the relationship.
No determination at all.
Even though he was given a second chance that the wife forgiven him the 1st affair encounter.

He is not that into you. Whether you two are together or not, he will still leave.

I salute her for her courage.
She did her best.
Just that he is such a jerk.
And what the movie says is true, her life continues, and the right one is yet to come. =)

You fault? It takes 2 hands to clap.

Girls, I love.

2009-02-25T22:06:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I almost did a trip around Singapore.
I was at outram to get my CNCC (criminal record for Disney).
Then walked to Chinatown to pay my air tickets for the attachment. Next walked to Raffles Place for lunch. I had beef noodles.
It was really good!! =D
From there, I proceed to JURONG.
Because my dear friend (Lim Shu Hui) need companion to Acer to get her laptop fixed.
Sylvia and I had to cab down to Acer as it was raining. =(
We had dinner over at IMM and I headed back to Yishun to get the bus home.
Went to so many places in a day. Tiring. =X

Today, Shuhui, Pei Ling and I had majiong session over at Sylvia's place.
However, the host get tired after 2 rounds. =X Still we managed to finish the game with her substitute player. Hahas.
It was fun able to get together as often as possible with them before their attachment starts. Awwww. I'll miss them. LOADS.

I realised.
We have to be forgiving to live life to the fuller.
I learnt. =)

so that is it

2009-02-23T03:29:00.001+08:00

I went to Sun Tec today to get my stuff.
But I only manage to get my luggage.
You may call me stupid.
The luaggage + the safety security lock = $203sgd.
So expensive. =.=
I still have so much more to buy.
Tell me, how much more does this attachment going to cost more?

Going to get more of my stuff tml.
Hope you can make it tml. =)

The hardest thing that can be control should be your personal emotions I guess.
Easily influence by alot of factors.
Though I think I handled it pretty well venting them on *ahem*.
Hahas. Thanks man.
For keeping yourself awake to be scolded and irritated by me.

I saw something coincidence today.
I want to know the person. =)
Maybe, he/she is my twin? my soulmate? hahas.

Those reading there. I understand what it means.
Word for word.
Just like I was in her shoes.
And she was in mine.

hey, I was being sarcastic and out to irritate you.
I did it.
But upsetting people is seriously not enjoyable.
Though I've always been good at getting you mad.
I was just joking.
You know, praising you, you usually fly up the sky.
I'm sorry.
Smile, getting angry makes you ugly eh. =)
Good luck eh.
All the best.

back to school

2009-02-20T22:46:00.002+08:00

I went back to NYP today to hand up the financial form to Mr Pang today.
After that, I went back to NSS (Northland Secondary School), my secondary school to look for God Pa (Mr Willie) for lunch.
Hahas.. It is so weird that everyone was staring at me.
They were thinking, " Who is this girl talking to that teacher?"
But well, what to do?
If I were them, I will wonder too. =X

Anyway, I brought god pa to Shang Hai Xiao Chi.
We ordered 1 jug of chrysantumum, 1 bowl of noodles, 1 bowl of big wanton soup, 1 plate of xiao long bao, 1 plate of sheng jian bao and 1 plate of shi ji dou.
Hahas.. We can't finish the food. =X

It is great to be able to see him eat and enjoyed the food.
He has been eating irregular due to his busy schedule. =(
I enjoyed the time we share, talking about what is going on with my life and my future which he is always concern about.
The way he told the other staff that I am going to Disney World for attachment like a proud daddy showing off his daughter. Hahas..

I met up with a few teachers, though I want to see Mrs Ho, she is the teacher who has faith in believing I can do well while some teachers don't. The one who gave me the confidence of loving Mathematics again. =)
Looking around the school brings be back good memory of old times. =)

AWWWWW...

I didn't know, that little fun and mistake that happened unexpectally changes people you least expected.

Club hop

2009-02-19T18:31:00.001+08:00

Hahas..seriously, I need to get out of the house like everyday?
But I shall stay home today and finish reading Breaking Dawn.
Before the Twilight movie I have been reading till now. =X
Too much things on hands.

Yesterday was sort of club hopping day.
It has been planned for so long. Finally we are going. =)
Esther, Peiling, Sylvia, Pei Fen, Shu Hui and I went down to Clarke Quay.

1st stop: Zirca.
They offer free lycee martini to ladies till 12am so the girls wants to drink first to get high.
There were hot babes and hunks dancing. It just.. ...

2nd stop: Rebel
We went there to get our chop and place the bags before we go pick up over dear Sylvia Cee.
We danced for awhile and the rest feel that the wasn't high so they went to get a jug of Vodka Lime to share. It doesn't taste that bad actually. =)

3rd stop: Fashion Bar
They were promoting of buying 1 jug of housepour and get 2 jugs free. So they girls went haywired drinking and my horror starts.
Vomited. Yet again.
I'm seriously not going to drink on an empty stomach anymore.
I feel so terrible la. =(

4th stop: Back to Rebel
We went back to Rebel and dance.
I was feeling better and everyone started dancing.
Even ShuHui who was reluctant to dance also loosen up herself.
Dancing with the girls was seriously a great way to get things out of your system.
The funny moves they do.
Especially Esther. =D
And dear Peiling who shooed that desperate guy away. =D
At the end of the few songs, there was this guy keep tagging at my back for god knows why.

5th stop: Breakfast at Macdonalds
Sylvia and I had Milo while the rest was having their breakfast.
All of us keep taking photos.
Or should I say we have been camwhoring since we met. =X

Hahas..After breakfast, Sylvia, ShuHui and I headed home in cab while the rest waited for the first train.
Pictures will be uploaded soon. =D

We are having our sport games, shopping and another club hop regime? =D

Meeting Lina

2009-02-17T21:57:00.001+08:00

I met Lina today.

Had lunch at Swensen.

Baked rice. Pasta. Baked Mussles. Calamari. Coke. Sprite. Ice cream.

Hahas. Every day I have a heavy meal.

Getting fatter I guess.

Talk so much things.

But we didn't take pictures!

Mum bought korean strawberries for me.

Chomping them makes me happy! =)

Friends I love. More to come. =)

2009-02-17T12:12:00.001+08:00

I have so many friends I want to meet before I fly.

1st one I met was Rachel on Vday.
Talk to her a little, and she has to rush off to meet her bf for Vday dinner so I need to meet her again.
Not once. But many times more. My favourite girl. =)

2nd one I met was Daniel.
We went to Holland V for tea at Essential Brew.
Nice tea and food they have there.
After that we went to the reservoir.
He knows I need to go there to get things off my chest.
The company was great! He never fail to understand me.
We had such a long talk, laughter and joy.

3rd one I met was David.
Hahas. I think he wants to kill me.
Since his birthday till now, I didn't really able to go out with him on an alone basis.
We went for lunch + talk + pool + chat + arcade + laugh and headed to Night Safari to chill and snacks.
Whatever we said, it is between us ah.. * Muahahaha*

4th one?
I'm meeting Lina later. =)

The rest, I'll date them out. On 1 on 1 basic before I go. =)

EXAM IS FINALLY OVER!

2009-02-13T23:02:00.003+08:00

6 days of consecutive examination papers.
Other than 1st paper, the rest, Monday to Friday, 9am to about 11am.

FINALLY.
THE TOURTURE IS OVER.
My very first time having such a hard time preparing and getting over the papers.

It is too much for my mental and physically body to take. =(

But well, feeling slightly better now.

When out to celebrate with the girls today.
Sylvia, Peiling, Esther, Pei Fen, Agatha and I. Shu Hui joined us later.
Suki sushi buffet for brunch.
I thought I ate alot, yet they still complaint I didn't have enough.
It lasted for the whole day man.

Next, minds cafe to play board games. =D
Hahas great fun man, we shall go again kay?
Last stop shopping!
Hahas, didn't bought much though.
But there is so much shopping I have to do some for my attachment. =)

I'm available people, feel free to date me out till 28th March 2009. =)

ambiguous

2009-02-08T22:02:00.002+08:00

I don't know.
Maybe it is just for the moment.
Maybe it is for long.
It feels different now.
The communication method feel familiar.
I tried not to compare.
But it feels like that way.
I can't differentiate.
Things that I want to believe or that is the facts.

I need something.
I need to feel at ease.
I need a new habit.

I learnt

2009-02-06T10:39:00.006+08:00

Hmmm.I thought so too.
Maybe this is why, it happened.
Not trying to blame.
Just trying to express.
Leave it and not understanding it.
Things don't fall from the sky to give me what I want.
Work the way through, sacrifice certain things to gain certain things.
An effort to balance both ways.
No pain no gain.
Attempted to understand but was unavail.

Maybe the reason will never be found.
Maybe it is just a misunderstanding.
Maybe.

But I believe, there is an answer.
Just whether anyone willing to find out or to tell.
Maybe one day, we will be told.
Anyway, its over.
We got to move on with our lives.

Making an effort.
Every little things count.
None wanted such a result.
But sure, memories will always be there.

once and for all

2009-02-03T23:06:00.004+08:00

I read something interesting.
What you perceive or what other percieve may not be the truth.
Did you make an effort to find out the truth?
Did you make an effort to avoid such disappointment?
Others did.
Intiatives made but was rejected.
Not once or twice but many times that trying seem unavailable.

Other party feels that it doesn't really matter.
You feel that things should be this way.
But there isn't just a single side of the story.
Yours.
Theirs.
And the truth.

Blaming self is hard.
But losing something important due to your pride is it worth it?
Maybe you feel you deserve better.
Maybe you feel others are better.

Seek the truth with your heart.

2009-01-31T01:02:00.000+08:00

Wow.
I think my blog has spider web already. =X
Sorry folks for my irregular update. =X

Last few weeks were hectic.
Rushing projects, power point editing and presentations.
So much things to do before CNY.

After 8 years, I went back to Malaysia for CNY with my family and Da Sao.
Hahas. I went back to Muar and Ipoh, Jiang Sa for a visit.
Grandma's "Ata Chu" was horribly infested with ants, spiders, dust and loads of other insects.
Especially mosquitoes. I look horribly. Swollen bumps on my legs, hands and hands. =(
Cleaning and perparing prayers there was a long chore.
The good thing there?
Reminsic the old times there.
My childhood memories and my family all time favourite: ASAM FISH! ATE 3 TIMES IN 2 DAYS! =D

Back to Jiang Sa.
The atmosphere there was weird.
Every little action seem to be scruntinized, they were just waiting for a moment that whatever you say or do is to be put in the bad light.

So lucky for my family, we are good terms with most of the cousins than the elderly.
We escape to the town area for asam laska (3 times in 2 days again =X), went to a cafe to eat and bought Da Sao's birthday cake as her birthday is on the new year eve. After that we went to K Box in Ipoh to sing. Hahas. 1st time i sing with my siblings, with my cousins. Pretty good feeling though. =)

I feel that uncle is well off but mum did so much over there, preparing, cooking and cleaning for others. =(

Days over in Malaysia we woke up damn early. Like 7am, 8am everyday. =(
She is already so tired from the long journey there, tiring days of cleaning that old house, perparing prayers for 2 days yet have to slog her time there where there is a maid hiding somewhere else and not out helping to prepare meals or clean up. =X
I washed like 30-40 over bowls, pair of chopsticks and spoons man.
Nevermind. Lucky we are there only once a year.

Now, I shall just mug for my exams, hotel ops notes done.
5 more to go. JIA YOU.

ANYWAY.
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!

For you, my dear.

2009-01-04T22:48:00.001+08:00

The 1st time I met you.

It was primary 3 when you just moved in.
My playful brother just went to your place and offered to help your mum.
This is how we 1st know each other existence.
We went through many things together.

Since we are the same age, we always study together.
For PSLE and O'levels.

There are times we are unhappy with each other.

There are times we can't stand each other.

When you ...

Are going for a party, you will ask me what to wear, what to go with.

Have something you don't know what to do, you will ask me how it should be done.

Are angry, you will call me to complaint to me.

Are sad, you will call me, talk to me and you will feel better.

Want a coffee?

Want to eat?

Want to shop?

Want to club?

You will call me. =)

I'm going to States in March.

Flying off tentatively on 26th.

But I'll blog. You can tag.

I'll change my habit of not checking mail for you.

I'll buy mike and bring a web camera over so that you can chat with me.

I'll give you my number so that you can call me when you need me.

No worry.
I'll still be there for you no matter when am I. =)

pampered in a silent way

2008-12-31T06:14:00.000+08:00

I watched Australia today. My last movie of 2008 I guess. =)
I was supposed to watch a movie for school ICA4 for my superhost.
It is to appreciate and critic performing art of our own preference of films. =)
For your information, ICA refers to in- course assessment that are tests or project that contribute to our overall grade for that module.

It was a show that lasted about 3hours.

Seriously, it’s a great show.
It is inspirational yet touching and romantic.
It deserves a high rating.

I think, I’m really a pampered child.
I received my DisneyWorld attachment package today.
This month, dad business went down, a few of his customers has financial crisis, my maid hospitalized and he and mum visited the doctor frequently this few days.

He has been earning less now, yet he has to spend so much.
I asked him for New Year clothing money and he told me all.
Yet, he still give me the money, more than sufficient.
I asked him again, can I still go to Disney attachment?
What he said touches me.
“Go ah, just go.”
“Do you have sufficient cash for me to go dad?”
“Do they need the money now? It’s ok, you want to go, just go eh.”
“Nope. Not yet. I just received the package of document”
“ Just let me know whenever they want you to pay for it alright.”
I used to want to go France for student exchange programme, going over there for 4months to study but dad said it was a waste of money but he is supportive of me going to Disney.
I’m touched.

People who speak the least did the most I guess.
People who talks a lot are too busy to do what they say.
Thanks dad.
Thanks for pampering me silently.
Though you seldom express them, but thanks for loving me the way you do.
Thanks mum for supporting my decisions, my ideas, my dreams.

dreaming of being a pamper princess

2008-12-27T00:35:00.000+08:00

Stress.
All the projects and deadlines arriving.
Unmanageable time available between members, trying to figure out the right project directions and trying to finish 6 projects.
2 projects due on Monday and Tuesday.
God bless me man. =(
I only left with 4 weeks before exams is here.
Gosh.
Should I go back to Malaysia?
24-27 Jan.
But I'm having 6 examinable papers and the trip cut through half of my study week.
HOW?? =(

Girls love to be pamper.
Do they derserved to be pamper and treated like a princess?
I'm demanding to be pampered nowadays.
Want more compromise from others.
I think I gave in too much in the past I guess. Hahas.
=X

But isn't it nice being pampered?
Being the one who is given in by others,
having somemore to be observant of your little moves.
Having someone to care, someone to share the sorrow and joy.
Someone to make sure things are well taken for you, just want you to be happy.
Yet, not asking anything in return.
Awww.
It sound good doesn't it?
I think i'm like describing what a parents willing to do.
Hahas.
But sometimes, I do hope to they do have some be able pay a little care, attention and love to their children.
Dad is having mood swing again. =(
he is just keeping his problems to himself?
Or manupause ? (Though I know it only happens to older woman)
What i can do, is to dream of being pampered i guess.

i need a break

2008-12-24T01:12:00.005+08:00

Oh my god.
I'm so tied up.
So tired.
JUST WANT TO SLEEP!

I have been busy preparing my attachment's document with Disney.
Rushing 5 projects during the holiday.
It is pretty tiring, turning up at school like 10am and the projects can dragged till like 6pm or even later.
You are lucky to have to do a project a day but usually it is cramped like 2, 3projects in a day.

I went to Malaysia High Commission yesterday.
Fuck.
I can only describe it this way.
It is at some ulu pandan place that I have to cab there during the peak hour.
I was there at 9am to 4pm.
Waited for 7hours to get my passport renew.
My bloody god can?
GRRR.

At least one good thing.
I burnt a hole getting a new pair of spectacles.
Earn them, spent them.
It is worth it to pamper myself with a great gift for christmas.

* It looks okay on me?*

At least tommorrow will be a relaxing day.
I'm out with clique for christmas eve partayyy. =)
SEE GIRLS!
I give up earning more on christmas day just to be with you girls.
Ain't I sweet? =D

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE.
SWWWEEEET JOY AHEAD.

Disney Attachment.

2008-11-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

Wow. It has been awhile since I blogged.
So busy.
Every week, there are projects meeting, icas, tutorials to do, lectures to attend.
I'm so exhausted.
Everyday I go to school, the only thing in my mind is to go home quick and sleep. =X

2 ica next week. Again.
Written for human resource management and lab opera operation ica for hotel operations this time. =(
I haven't did any revision at all!
Help!!

I'm going for my Disney attachment.
6months in United States, Orlando.
I'm leaving on 28th March 09 and coming back at 2nd October 09.
Anyone celebrating farewell for me?
Or early birthday celebration?
My birthday is stuck half way through my attachment. =(

I'm starting to worry a little.
Never been away from home for so long.
I'm a spoilt little girl that have to learn to be independent.

Same script different cast.

2008-11-17T23:31:00.002+08:00

Why?
It is an issue that happens every now and then.
You will spare a thought for your wife being busy and tired from school but why do you reprimand me on my part.
So what she is your beloved?
Do you hate me that much?
Seeing me in misery makes you feel better?
We have e same blood in us, yet the way you reacted to me is so indifferent.
I can never understand you.
Sometimes, you are really a bitch.

I had my interview with Disneyland today.
It seem to be a fantastic experience to have my attachment at Disneyland.
But I'm not sure how it goes.
Hope I get accepted and I'll be off to States for 6months.
At least I will be able to escape from his misery.
Though I might miss his customary dinner.

School is at 8am every Monday.
School for Tuesday is usually 9am.
But I have to be in school at 8am sharp for Universal Studio Webinar.
A teleconference with Universal Studio management team from US.

Wish me luck people. I get to know Universal Studio attachment better and I get to know my interview results.

Praying hard.

misunderstanding, i guess.

2008-11-04T01:13:00.002+08:00

It hurts to care.
Maybe gemini are like these.
Those who hate you, are your friends and those who love you are your enemies.
I don't know what I can do.
I am exhuasted with my limitations.
My time, my rest, my school work, my money.
Seeing the way you are, it hurts us.
It hurts me more because I go through it before.
TRUTH HURTS.
You want to get over it?
You must have an open mind.
You are thinking for him, who is thinking for you my dear?
You must be receptive and not cope with the sorrow yourself.
Maybe you are still not ready to give up on it.
Maybe you are not ready to get over.
When you want to get over.
Seriously want to, den let us know.
You must be ready to accept all those cruel facts or hide those sweetness somewhere for a new lease of life.

I'm your friend.
I won't abandon you.
Just don't want to be seen as a bad person from your perspective.
It's harsh.
But thats the fastest and hardest way to recover.
I'll be there when you need me ba.
Anw. I care and love you.
Jia you ba.

I have to do my tutorials, my speech.
I haven't do a single thing.

I'm a daddy girl

2008-11-04T00:14:00.001+08:00

I had to work OC(outside catering) last saturday at 8am.
Met up the rest for breakfast at 7am thus I have to wake up early. =(

It was raining heavily the moment I stepped into the bathroom till I was about to leave home.
I woke daddy up at 6am asking him is it ok that he can drive me to the mrt station and he agreed.
It was just like I was younger, Daddy never reject to send me school whenever it rains.
Ya, I'm a pampered child. But I love the love he showered on me. =)
Fyi: my area does not have any shelter to the bus stop and I'll be totally drench walking out even with an umbrella. That was how heavy the rain was.
So pandon me for being spoilt. =D

Usually dad wakes up about 7.30am for work and he woke up early at 6.20am to drove me out.
He found an umbrella(my place usually misplace them =X), he passed it to me though it is big enough for the both of us but he uses newspapers to shelter himself while allowing me to use the whole umbrella. =X

He even walked over to the passenger door and unlock the door for me before proceeding over to his driver seat where it can auto unlock everything. =(

When we arrived at khatib mrt station, dad drove very close to the car in front so that I can alight within the shelter. Then he had to reverse the car in order to go leave.

It's so sweet of him la.
It may be just a dad's instinct to take care of his little daughter, but these simple gesture do warm my heart in the cold morning.

AWWWW. I'm dependent on him.
I even claimed the buying of my shorts($60) only from him though I bought a jackt($100) because I didn't want him to spend much on my purchase but he gave me $20 more. =)

How?
I wanted to go Orlando(US) for attachment.
6 months in Disneyland or 4months in Universal Studio?
I already miss home when I attend the briefing for disney, looking at the forms. =(

Disneyland has better infrastructure with their own apartments within Disney, wireless available to keep in touch with people, transport within the place so that I can get to work free and convienently.
We get to travel the 1st week.
My clique company(5 people), only shuhui is available.
Part time working and study once a week with Disney and a major project to be completed.
I can receive 3 certificate in the end.
But Dad has to cough out abt 15k and loses about 7k in the end.

Universal Studio, spearhead of SWR(Sentosa World Resort aka Intergrated Resort) and they may offer job vacancy after your graduation to work within the SWR.
But we have to live with apartment find by the travel agent, not sure if there will be wireless available, have to make our way to get public transport to work.
It will really leave me being very independent.
But the clique company, all will be going.
So it may be fun after all staying with them for 4months. =)
We can have sleepover party every night.
We receive a certificate from Universal Studio.
Continue our other 2 months attachment with a local company.
Lost of about 4-5k for Universal Studio.
Thus, there will be more exposure to 2 different attachment and earn back some cash for the lost in Universal Studio.
2 different attachment may be value add to your resume.

I will miss home, but I want to be independent. =X
People..any idea? Give me some ideas and suggestions.

I had e pain, i go through it before.
I can't say it's worst.
I can't say I'm fine now.
But I'm better.
I was trying too hard to make you feel better I guess.
What I did seem the wrong things.
Because you are sinking deeper.
It hurts to see you like this.
You deserve better.
I will leave it this way.
Shan't say anything more.
Somethings you can't prevent someone from hurting unless one ungergo the pain themselves.
Then they will truely understand.
No matter what, I care and love you.
We'll be there for you dear.

2008-10-29T01:38:00.000+08:00

Love.
Today, in business law lecture, it says that no consideration is establish unless there is an exchange of something of value therefore there is no legal binding made.
And, love, is not consider.
Is it worthless? Without a penny?
Hahas.

It is something mysterious.
It comes in many forms.
There is so many experiences one may go through.
Creating each a story of your own that no one else can own other then you two.

Hmmm.
It makes me wonder.
It makes me ponder.
Things can be smooth sailing or be such a storm.
Not getting involve, give you peace.
But if you did, you may be in bliss.

Many many things goes through my head.
Memories so many years ago.
So long ago.
Yet, it feels so real.
But, yes.
It's so long ago.

Tranquil.
It's all I want.
Focus.
It's all I need.

Ling's Wedding

2008-10-27T00:40:00.001+08:00

My cousin, Ling was actually been staying over at Canada for quite awhile.
Now she is back in Singapore for her wedding with her Canadian husband.
She had customery wedding dinner at OCC's restaurant today.
I didn't have the bride & groom photo yet. But I'll get it soon, I guessed.
But she looked beautiful and he looked handsome today. =)

It has been so long ago that I did reception for my cousin wedding though I have done so many of theirs before. hahas.

The reception was pretty screwed up. =X
The list was very messy with han yin ping ying, english name, wrongly spelt names and not included names.
So there is many many reason for not finding the table for the guests.

But the dinner was fine.
Food isn't that good compared to the food tasting.
It may be due to the cooking for so many tables, that it affects the taste.

But I love weddings. =)
You have nice food.
You have great company.
It's a great time to get in touch with your busy cousins and look at their cute little childrens.
I'm already an aunt of 8! =X
I'm getting a little old at the age of 19. Hahas.

Well, the best I look from wedding is taking photos with my family and relatives. =D

Bro,Dad,Sis,Mum, Me and Sister-in-Law (Bee Chin)

Hahas..I'm so happy that at least my parents smile. It is hard to get them smile actually. =)

For more photos, I'll upload them as soon as I get them. =)

I'm tired. Night People!

Ritz gathering

2008-10-16T00:57:00.000+08:00

Last week of holiday, I went to st james with ritz people. =D these are the photos.
I saw lina there. =D

Dinner at Tampopo on Sunday.

The food I shared with Serene Loves and Glenda and Kelina. =) Sabu Sabu hotpot shared with Loves. Grilled cheese hotate! Teriyaki chicken rice and vegetable that was shared between Kelina and Glenda.Silver cod fish. Black pig goyza. Teriyaki chicken.

School is hard to manage this semester. Every single module has projects and there may be more than 1 projects.

Of course projects ain't new for my course but the tutors make sure that they randomize our grouping so that we can't choose our group mates.

The explanation behind this action?

It is because we can't choose our collegues when we go out to work. Neither do we know how well we can work with the others and we may need their help in the future, thus we have to establish this working relationships with others.

It will be working with more than 10 different ppl at one time for 7 different modules. I agreed with the reason behind this doing but it'll give everyone a hell time to do time management with everyone else. Is this how the working world is? Well, I thought NYP isn't such a good polytechnic when I first entered. I chose it because it's the nearest one to my home. But, I realised the way the modules and coordination for my course are pretty well planned.

I think the teachers want us to have more time after school to meet up for project meeting, the days ended pretty early everyday. But I'm having lesson like 8am, 9am, 9am,9am and 12pm everyday. It's already the 2nd time I took cab to school this week.Grr. I need more rest and time management. I need more sleep. =(

last day of holiday.

2008-10-13T01:02:00.001+08:00

Saturday.
I was working till 3am.
The Army boys came to visit us including Serene love came down too! =)
I miss her la.
I enjoyed touching their heads. Hahas. So long since I had people calling me the nickname I had in ritz.

After ot we went for supper with ritz peeps.
Adeline, Cherlyn, Sam, Ivy, Harta, Pong, Tine Joon, Simon, Colin, Amos, Marcus, Andrew, Raymond and I.
14 of us. =)
We had dim sum at geylang and even had fruits after that.
Slept about 6am in the morning.

Sunday.
We went Tampopo and eat for belated celebration of Simon's and Pong's birthday celebration.
Ritz peeps were there. The old ones, the existing ones and the new ones.
Too many to name, take a look at the picture.
Hahas. So many of us right?!
I'll post the food photos after Serene send it to me. =)
We even had ice cream after that.
I shared honey with sweet potatoe with chestnut and chocolate peppermint. Nice!

School is starting tomorrow. I'll miss them!
Shall go back and work to play with them! =)

Looking forward to see my clique! =D

finally, my laptop is working!

2008-10-11T03:52:00.000+08:00

Sorry people. Here I am to update my blog and be online to chat! =)
HI RITZ ARMY BOYS!
Didn't know you guys still visit my blog. =D
Thanks for the concern. =)
My blog isn't dead okay, Leon.
It was "sick" and needed a long rest well the owner has no time to accompany it to see the doctor. =D
Thanks Leonard! Blessing my blog with happiness. It's so much kinder of you than Leon. *Ahem*
But when can I see you guys at ritz outing?
I didn't manage to talk to you guys much at recent ritz outing. =X

Let me blog about what happened during this one month.
1) I attended my bro's ROM. He is 21 and it took them a year to managed to wait their their wedding day to arrived. I shall post the pictures soon.
2) I finally passed my driving. =D
3) Went to SiSi's bday chalet and manage to chat with those army boys.
4) Celebrated Jie Wen's bday at Kbox. =)
5) I met up with shu hui and shopped! Your new bag is still with me!
I finally able to joined the ritz driver gang and may I be able to drive during our outing.
6) Been working and working and working during the holiday.
7) I worked F1. Though I wanted to sit SG flyer but working there for 3days makes me dislike flyer architecture design and hates Formula 1 cars! They nearly have me lossing my hearing and my legs for walking so freaking long just to do my service.
8) I had good food for so many days! Tampopo, Sokudo ( the japanese mache) , soup restaurant.
9) Bought 2 new bags, 1 new tops, 1 new pumps and a new shorts. (But getting another footwear I guess, slippers and another pumps. =X)
10) I am tan-ner now. hahas.
11) I finished twilight but the other 3 books with my other dears.
12) Whether I managed to slim down, you people will tell me.hahas.
13) Most of my wishlist items are accomplished! Left a few more to go. =D
14) I went to St James on Wednesday with Ritz peeps to loosen up and to celebrate birthday with Simon and pong.
I saw LINA DARL there. Hahas..
15) Happy Birthday to SIMON BRO and PONG!
16) Having supper after work tonight and will be having birthday dinner Simon and Pong on sunday!
17) Prepare for the new semester!!

Hahas, that about it for the month I guessed. I have been sleeping most of the time. =X

Things may not be smooth sailing.
There is so many things happening.
Many things that I don't want it to happen.
Many things that I tried to avoid.
There are situations I did not handle well.
Things I did not manage to fend off well.
May it be an obstacle, or a problem.
Let action be the best solution.
It's a challenge to work things out in my life.
I must have faith in myself, who I'm really am.

whatever will be, will be.

2008-09-09T01:20:00.003+08:00

Many things happened recently.
Problems, concerns, worry.
Never ending.

I did many things.
Some were out of control.
Things that I won't do usually.
I pressured myself too much.
I let myself go a little too much.

I think I should just let things go.
Do things the way I want it.
Be it work or what.
I bother too much I guess.
I should learn to loosen up more.
Less serious, less tense.
Many things will happen, be it good or bad.
Either you have a share of it.
Envy of others, you won't get it too.
Show off about it, it won't last.
So, whatever will be, will be.

Look at the brighter side of life, why worry so much when the rest ain't bother?
I'm looking for the cheerful and the hyper me that I'm once am.

Mentally & physically drained.
Night people.

Chiong ah!

2008-08-27T00:41:00.000+08:00

Hahas..Wednesday, 27 August 08.
I'm back to chiong work to pay off my bills and wants!
People..work okay? keep me company! Hahas..
As the same time, it is a good way to ignore things that you don't wish to think for the moment..=)

CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG!
I'm going to work non- stop.

those were the days

2008-08-25T00:34:00.002+08:00

When can this come to an end?
When can he understand?
When can things work out?
It has been 3 weeks i have last spoken a word to him.
It still aches when I thought of that night.
Thoughts came rushing through my head.
Memories of me when I was young till now.
His good, his bad.
Experiences so much under his love.
A different kind of love expression he use i guess.
I do love him, but how can things turn better?
He is stubborn, maybe this is where i inherit this trait in me.

How can we display love in a peaceful and less hurtful way?
I miss the times when you...
hold my hands while we shopped at thomson plaza.
tickle me when I slept in van when I do delivery with you.
bought me that andersen strawberry ice cream cone from marina square, telling how delicious it was when didn't even try it at all.
waited every night after my tuition during O'levels just to fetch me home every night.
and mum kiss me on my cheeks on christmas.
allow me to go HK trip with school to enhance my course knowledge.
allow me to work when you actually dislike us to.
hugged me when I had a major break up.
fork out your time just to bring me to pray.

But all these memories seem so far away.
So far away.
I can hardly grasp them.
Do they really belong to me?
dad, I miss the soft side of you.
I hate the cold and uncaring of you.
I am afraid of that side of you.
I am..afraid.

Wishlist to go.

2008-08-23T00:08:00.005+08:00

Finally.
It is over.
MY EXAM IS OVER!
HOLIDAY IS HERE TO STAY!! =D

All 4 papers seemed fine. I'm just a little worry for my FMA paper.
Hope at least I have a minimal grade of C+. =X
For all papers, I really did my very best to do well for my exams.
May the best luck and wishes be with me.. =)

Most probably I'll be working very often during this holiday.
ANYONE WILL BE MY WORKING KHAKI?!
I have a wishlist of things I want for this holiday:
- Pay off my driving lessons.
- My driving license ( I want it badly)
- Get through the Disney's interview.
- Pay off to MJ's bank (for the clique graduation trip to Taiwan)
- Hair cut + highlight ( any suggestion for colours?)
- Digital camera ( so that I can take good pictures if I manage to go Disney Orlando for attachment)
- Half of a new wardrobe ( not greedy to change everything =X)
>>New tops, shorts, skirts, DRESSES, shirts and many many more.
- 2 designer leather sling and shoulder bags ( preferably light brown or burgandy red)
- Pumps
- Ballerina flats
- Heels
- Slippers from num(black, red and brown)
- Finish reading twilight, new moon, eclipse and breaking dawn. ( but shuhui's has to lend me the very 1st book 1st..hahas)
- Get tanned
- Do loads of exercise + lose weight + tone the muscles
- Long necklace (with vintage ornaments)
- Chunky Necklace ( with a single pendant)

So much I want to own.
Since I pay for my own purchase, I need to work doubly hard this holiday.

But dear people, feel free to date me out!
A week or 2 week advance booking is advise.
So that I can free that day exclusive for you! =)

numb

2008-08-17T03:42:00.000+08:00

I seldom post about my last relationship.
Is it because the pain is unbearable or I just want to safekeep it as memories?

I was thinking to myself.
Why am I the way I am now.

I realised that I had undergo too much pain and disappointment.
People whom I trusted had misused them or doubted me.

I did my best in whatever I do.
But it had turned out differently.

Do you know the pain I undergo?
It stabbed into me many times. Too many.
The pain is worse than the one you are feeling.
It is so bad that I am numb now.
The trust that I have given you were misused many times.
I never lie to you.
I never distrust you.
I gave myself wholeheartedly to you.
I did things that I never did for others to you.
Things that my siblings were surprised that I'll do it for a guy.
The one I came out of my house at 4am.
The one I hugged in the cold while he was drunk.
The one that I ran in the rain for.
The one that I was reprimanded by my parents many times.
You are the first that I have the courage to present you to my parents.

The beginning was sweet. Very sweet.
I thought to myself: I was the luckiest girl on earth.
Everything was bliss.
Breaking up with you never ross my mind.
The thought of me leaving you aches.

Things that you did that upset me, I always never blame you.
I just think that you are just tired, or you had a bad day.
Reasons of your bad are easily found and I do appreciate your good.
I tried my best to be understanding.
I seldom throw my temper at you.
How many times you see me getting angry?
There are times you used me as an excuse to stay out late.
There are times you want me to lie and cover up for you.
For you, though I hate to lie, I did my best to let you get away with it.
I did my best to accommodate with whatever you want.
But the promises we had, many ain't fulfilled.

Correct me if I'm wrong.

I know I wasn't a great girlfriend afterall.
If I were why did we break up?
I am a demanding person.
I demand too much I guess.
Maybe I wasn't sensitive enough.
Maybe I am really a bad girlfriend.

In my eyes, I never emphasize your flaws.
I used to see it in others but I realised that everyone has it.
It is not that bad like plague.
It is just how someone views and interprets it.

After the break up and my family issues.
I am sick and tired of holding on and working out things.
Many things have left me unappreciated and misunderstood.

I need and I want to learn to be selfish.
I just want to protect myself from the hurting.
It affects onyl me and not upsetting anyone else.
I no longer able to trust guys anymore.
Unless they are the ones who are really close to me.
I can't expose myself to anyone anymore.
Iadmit that I am timid.
I can't trust anymore.
The agony, the misery, the suffering that I had undergo.
It hurts too much.
So much that i'm numb.

You may feel that you did a lot.
I did not deny your effort either.
True, I am seeing how long you can substain.
Things usually sweet at first when you want it.
But when you have it, soon it will be taken for granted.
Time will tell.
Patience and sincerity may be shown.
Put yourself in my shoes sometimes.
Spare a little thought for me.
There are too many things that had happened.
I had scarred past.
I can't possibly trust others, lack alone committing myself in a relationship.
The things you wanted, you have to earn it.
Be it love or trust.
It was given to you many times in the past.
But you have to earn them now as you lost them.

Somehow you make me feels as if you are deperately wanting things to work your way.
You don't get together with someone before you establish the trust.
You only get together with him after you trust him, after you feel that you will be safe in his hands.

You did not put yourself in my shoes.
Sparing a thought of the past and how hard it is for me to heal and trust.
It feels that you love yourself so much more.
If I were to find a guy to take care of me, I'll want him to love me more than he love himself.
Are you like that?
However, if you want things to work the way you want it. I am sorry.
There is nothing much I can give you now.
I'm a defected product.
I haven't found a way to make myself to feel emotions again.
I'm numbed by pain.
I haven't found a way to trust guy again.
It hasn't been easy.
I still experience pain when I think back of the past.
Maybe I'm not worth people putting in such extensive effort in me.
But healing and waiting for a damaged person is not for the faint hearted people i guess.
Agony has devoured the good memories and left me tattered with the bad ones.
It will take a long time to recovery I guessed.
For me to heal, to trust or to commit myself in a relationship.
I don't even know if I can accept you or even any other guy again.
Maybe all your effort and time will be wasted.
If you have no patience, no sincerity and you love yourself more than anyone else; you can give up now.
Or maybe, you have given up already.

Revision week

2008-08-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

Revision week now.
Been busy doing revision.
Brain is exhausted when I reached home every night.

Still have 3 more modules notes to do..=(
Friday at 4pm is my 1st paper, on my brother's birthday. =(
But I'm having steamboat on friday.
Good food of mum's preparation allows me to replenish my energy for the further road ahead. =D

I will be studying alone tommorrow.
Any companion?Hahas..
Jia you.
Jia you.
Jia you.

When exam is over, I can do what I want to do.
The clubbing, the working, the driving, the shopping, the tanning, the exercising. =D

Truths that I've realised.

2008-08-09T01:12:00.001+08:00

I think things are in a clearer picture now.
You already know what is it that keep you hanging.
Not what you thought all the while, but just not used to it.
Uncertainty helps to feign ignorance.
It makes you think less.
It makes you happier.
But look deep into your heart and look at the truth.
Maybe it confused you for awhile and you may worry that it hurts someone else.
But it is better that you found out about it now then later.
It saved you from more regrets.
Or further agony.

I never felt like this before.
Your presence.
I no longer able to withstand.
Breathing the same air as you makes me uncomfortable.
We used to be so close.
I loved the attention and care you once showered me.
But without trust.
There isn't anything else I can say.
It has been long enough.
You know me all my life.
I tried to think of your goodness.
But it happened so long ago.
Little thoughts and actions are enough to satisfy me.
But, it never enough for you.
I think there isn't much I can do.
I did before.
Many approaches.
But the problem is always there.
I tried too many times.
Others tried too.
Now I understand why did the rest give up.
Because, I gave up too.
I don't know how long this will last.
But at this moment, it made me feel worst about your kind.
Does all of you from the same gender behave such a way?
I may be stereotyping, but this is what I have seen.
This is what I have been through.

Don't blame me for the who I have evolve to.
You made me this way.
For this moment, I don't know what else I can do.

whatever.

2008-08-06T15:35:00.000+08:00

I'm left with HRL presentation on Friday.
Going to school tml for HRL lecture, then do presentation and we will be off to movie!
Hahas..it has been so long since the 5 of us catch movie together. =)

Yesterday, I watched Dark Knight with Des.
Thanks to him, keep telling me the next scene will be.
Spoilt quite a lot of exciting part for me as I'm tempted to ask him. =.=
Next time I shan't watch a movie that you have watch already.

If you asked, I will tell you.
But will you believe the truth or you just want the lies?
You already have your own set of thinking towards me.
whatever I said, does it make any sense to you?
I'm sick and tired of it.
What you say may be right..but is it the best for me?
You always force your thinking on me, but have you consider my feelings and thoughts?
You are being selfish.
You sound likeyou care.
You do things you think it reflects your concern.
Please, I'm your daughter, not your pet.
If you already has your own thinking and has no regard for the truth, I'll let it be, I'll no longer explain anything to you.

exhausted

2008-07-31T00:30:00.002+08:00

2 Presentations are down.
Left with 1.

Been sleeping late for the past few days.
Doing project at MJ's place till 2.30am on Monday.
Do project in school till school's mac canteen have to closed yesterday.
Left school at 11.27pm, PeiLing and I are lucky enough to board our last bus.
I only managed to sleep at 5am this morning, was busy with today's presentations.

Today, we have a morning project meeting at 8am.
I was punctual. =)

I went home to catch some sleep today.
I went to amkhub to meet drin for movie.
I wanted to watch the dark night but ended up watching money not enough 2.
It has been so long since I last cried like shit watching a movie.
My heart aches.
It reminds me of my parents.
The love and care they have shower on us are always seen negligible.
The only that are closest and love us the most are the people we treated the worst.
The sacrifies they did exceed what we can imagined.
Their love is the greatest.
We will only realised their goodness when we lost them I guessed.
Myopia.

Hey drin, sorry for the chocolate I gave you.
It worsen your health and mental condition.

For those who read my blog, there are things I mentioned before and it is still that. =)

Did I take a wrong step?
Things are becoming worst?
My sacarsm and blurness never leaves people in physical or mental agony I guessed.
I thought everything was fine.
But it was just my one sided thoughts I guessed.
How can I do to minimize the effects of my actions?
But whenever I think of it, I never manage to come out with a perfect solution.

There is so much in my mind, so much to do and exams are coming up.
Thought this topic shouldn't be an issue now.

When it meant to be, it will meant to be when the time is right.

now..

2008-07-25T21:44:00.000+08:00

I didn't managed to pass it again.
Too anxious. I don't know why.
Can anyone teach me how to calm myself ?

Today school was pretty relax.
Handed up retail project, one is down and a few more to go.
International cross culture ica 4, Hospitality marketing and Hotel, resort and leisure industry left.

jia you. jia YOU. JIA YOU!

A long talk.
Or it has always been an on going topic with me ignoring it?
Things has been repeated many times.
But ignorance is a bliss.
But i'm no longer entitled to it.
Well hidden truth has transpired.
But it doesn't want to make a difference.
Just leave it that way.
Just leave it that way.
It is fragile enough, don't shake it.

2008-07-23T00:45:00.000+08:00

I love my dad.
He is the only man I can entrust myself to.

He is a busy businessman.
He start work at 8.30am every morning and only sleeps about 11pm.

Sunday, he spared time to drive sister and I down to the temple to do prayers for my driving.
We travelled all the way to Jurong, but they are having religion dinner.
So, we travelled to Bukit Batok to find aunt, my dad's elder sister.
I told daddy I wanted to eat fried chicken wings, he brought me and sister to eat it.
We had chicken wings, jumbo fish balls and cheng teng.
He brought us blueberry cheese tart for breakfast too. =)

On Monday, I had driving till 8pm. I called dad at 9pm, he is still at the temple getting me an amulet. The temple isn't just that you can just walk in and walk out within 10minutes.

I'm seriously touched by his effort.
My dad.
I thought I wasn't important to him.
But he doesn't show his love for us that easily.
I love him. I love my mum too.
She always make an effort I am fine and healthy.
She always make sure she know what is in my life and how have they been.

The ones that never betray your trust.

2008-07-22T21:54:00.000+08:00

I don't know what is wrong with me !!

My studies is horrible. My attitude is horrendeous.

I am so short tempered.
I am easily agitated.
Is it due to pms, or is it due to stress? Sickness? Or others?
Are they the reasons or just explanation to make myself feel better?
F*.
I get so moody so easily.
I'm sorry people if you are one of the victim of my frustrations.

I hate myself for not focusing hard on my studies.
I hate myself for being so slack and not bothered when tests were here.
I seriously deserve the grade I had.
The amount of effort put in, the amount of results reflect.

I hereby pronounce, I, So Kim Choo, wouldn't be any more slacker.
I will work bloody hard to get my GPA increased.
I won't be distracted by any external control.
What I do is what I get.
What I want, I can and I will acheive it!

Nothing. Nothing is going to stop me from achieving what I want.

I will remain calm.
I will be careful.
I will revise.
I will do my best.

May the luck and wishes be with me!

busy week

2008-07-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

I had a busy very week.

Wednesday
I watched "Get Smart" with Des.f.
He was late.
I bought the tickets, accompany Mj and her bf and all bought their food, finished them and left for their movie and he isn't here yet. =.=

Waiting for people isn't exactly my forte, especially guys. =.=
Anyway, went he arrived, we had dinner and off to movie.
Lucky the movie was good.

Thursday
I had school and project meeting.
After them at 6pm, I rushed down to work.
Left work at 11pm as I'm having project on Friday at 10am.
Thanks Shaik for the free ride. =D

Friday
Project at 10am, school till 4pm, off to driving till 8pm and I went to work.
Yes, I reported work at 9pm.
I worked OT till 2.30am.
Work was a little busy but it was fine. =)
Working with all my darlings and friends to crap.

Saturday.
I'm a super unlucky person. My left eye was actually twitching since I woke up.

1) I woke up late. Missed my 2 alarms setting.
2) I scratched my left leg against my drawer's corner and it bled.
3) I missed bus 138 to ssdc.
4) I got a scratched on my right hand when I get down the bus.
5) Driving center was packed. I only managed to do 2 circuit items in 30mins.
6) Waited for Serene for 20-30 mins at mrt station but she end up telling me she will be reporting work late..hahas.. *loves, don't worry. I'm not angry eh? =) *
7) My group has to serve 4 tables with 2 baby chairs and 4 kids meals.
8) 2 tables has late guest (about half a table each) that entered after the door was closed.
9) 2 new guys, not very new but maybe work like a few months?
10) 1 missing staff. She was re-allocated but she didn't check neither anyone mentioned to her.
11) Told captains and manager of the missing staffs, told me they saw her but no one looked her for me till something happened.
12) 1st time, I was reprimanded by Su-An for asking me to stopped service.
But that guest's glass was empty and toasting was going to happened soon. Should I wait for the guest to raise his hand and complained to me that his glass is empty or should I anticipate the situation and correct it?
What do you expect from me when 1 staff went missing, 2 of the guys are away picking up appetizer while I have to served the appetizer as well as the served beverage to the rest.
How fast do you think I can do my service?
I always kena such grouping. =.=
13)That missing staff found helping out in the wrong group.When she saw the food, was here, she wanted to bring the dirty glasses to the stewarding but not serving the food first. =.=
14) The guys were blur. They only picked up 26 warm appetizer for 4 tables (usually about 40 guests). I had to get others to give me their extras.
15) Dessert has 3 parts: chocolate cream brule, 1 shot glass contain mango and passion and lastly is the cheese cake. Tabeta spoon is always placed on the left or above the dessert but that missing staff girl insisted that the presentation was having the chocolate on the left with the spoon on the left. =.= Fuck. Most of the guests are right hander, it is so fucking dumb to place it on the left and chocolate was supposed to be the on the right side of the plate. And she told me that the shot glass dessert should use the normal spoon to eat it. =.=
16) I don't know why, but my shot glass dessert fell on the floor, did not stain the carpet much but it stained the whole of the bottom of my skirt plus stockings. =.=
17) Cherlyn accidentally hit her hand on my right eye while she was gesturing while talking.

It sum up all my suay-ness.
So I actually know that I am an unlucky person, I never join lucky draw. Hahas..

End work at 2.30am again.

Sunday
Project at Mj's place, Yew Tee.
From about 1pm plus to 5.45pm and I'm to home.
I left the girls early to go praying, but ended up they have "big day" and invited alot of people to "eat tables" ( eat dinner) together and I can't do the praying at the temple.=(
I am busy on Mon n Tues too. Grrr..
My suay-ness continued.

15th July 08

2008-07-16T00:50:00.000+08:00

Lesson at 10am.
French always makes me wanna fast forward the lesson.
There will be e assesment for french, role playing and online assesment in class.
3 ica component. =.=

We had to wait till till 6 for the role play for Icca Ica 3.
Though at 1st the role play seemed screwed but we managed to clinch our objective by the end of the time.
Good partnership with Shahira's group. =D

After school, Mj and I went to Theresa to trim our eyebrows with Syl's company.
Went to Popular to get Mj's brushes and we went back to AMKhub again.

I met Aldrin for his birthday's dinner.
Nothing fancy, ate at one of the Hong Kong restaurant at AMKhub.
After dinner, we slacked at McCafe.
I got him cakes and Vanilla Latte.
What is birthday without birthday cake eh?

Awhile later, we headed to the interchange and off to home.

Thanks for the dinner and the sweets stuffs.
Don't try to make me silly again ah.
Hope your birthday wasn't too shabby.
Once again. Happy birthday.

I'm tired. So much to do, yet I couldn't do any. =(
Shaken but remain firm.

l o v e ?

2008-07-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

Twilight male character, Eward is so sweet.
My clique girls are slowly falling in love with him.
Love can be so amazing.
How can a guy be that sweet?
There are always male leads from movies, dramas and books who are so sweet, romantic and loving.
But how come I didn't meet any? Lol.

How do you fall in love with someone?
For the huge one time thing that someone did to you?
Or the accumulation of small little thoughts and actions that he did?
For me, it is the latter.
It is the effort that counts.
The continuation of determination and sincerity.

Remember those little things he or she likes.
Doing little thoughtful actions for the one who matters.
Is it tiring ?
But since she or he is the one you like, doesn't it makes doing such things come naturally?
Unknowingly, you will take notice of his or her preference.
Naturally you want to do every single thing to make he or she happy.
Because you love him or her.
So doing all these is never a chore.
But when feelings isn't that strong or fades.
Or just that you overlooked that one used to matter that much, taking him or her for granted.
Noticing the details and doing little things for that smile become a pain in the ass.

Bringing a jacket out with her, just to ensure she is warm become redundant.
Sending a good morning message or a good night message become unnecessary.
Used to think that letting the one you love know that he or she is the first your mind when you woke up and the last one you miss when you sleep is sweet.
But now it become too mushy?

It is one to interpret but never anyone to judge.
Yea, I know. One man's meat is another poison.
I agreed on this one.

Easily contented.
Mutual understanding.
Trust.
Faith.
Honesty.
Willingness
Commitment.
Communication.
All these are the keys to maintain a relationship.
Falling in love is easy .
But how both party are willing to work hard for the relationship to work is the hardest part.

I know a couple get together in such a short while and have trust and faith to be tied together for the rest of their lives sound so magical to me.
I wish them with all the happiness and bliss they can get with each other love.

Not that I don't believe in love.
It is one of the most beautiful human relations that one should experience.
But at this moment, i have no trust and faith in it.
I love a little too genuine.
I understand it a little too much.
I go through a little too deep.
It hurts me a little too painful.
I trusted too much to discover lies.
Thus, now I need a break before I lose my faith in love.
It may take awhile but I believe it take years.
For me to believe the creation call love.

Somehow, somewhat.
Such effort of mine shouldn't be done.
Why am I feeling a little more than I should.
I know the facts.
Been there, done that.
Sometimes a little more is good.
But the feeling without it annoys me.
I know exactly how and what should be done.
Can I believe and trust?
Expectations, anticipation and promises are never real in my life.
I heard what was said.
But it can be so contradicted with actions.
Never to judge, time will tell.
Just listen to it and see how it goes.
It could be just my imaginations of the past.
No sway. No persuasion.
Block it, leave it and I'll be fine.

Overspent

2008-07-14T12:29:00.001+08:00

I was late for project meeting yesterday.
Late for an hour.
So unlike me when I am the one who stayed the nearest.
I cabbed down to starbucks and we did project from 12pm to 5pm.

We took 980 to bugis. The bus was packed and we had to wait till the stop at Little India to have more personal space of our own.

I seldom shopped at bugis and I planned to keep them compnay without any purchase being done.
But it was always in my shopping list to get a dress and my footwear.
I bought a pair of sandals from charles and keith and a off shoulder dress. =)

Total expenditure of 2 cabbing trips, 1 Starbucks venti rasberries tea frap, Ajisen hotate remen, 1 pair of sandals and a dress.
I nearly spent $100 in a day.
God.
Over spent.

The rain was damn heavy last night.
MJ, Pei and I had figuring what was ahead of the road.
I were driving at such weather, I bet I'll be either driving super slow or parked at somewhere for lighter rain before proceeding.
Damn dangerous to drive at such weather.

The distance between the cab and my gate was like less than 10 steps but I was drenched in such a short while. =.=
Bad weather lead to bad internet connection for my area. I can't accessed to do my work.
GRRRR.
I hate it.

By the way, it is 12.38pm.
I was supposed to be attending FMA tutorial.
But the girls decided to skipped it. It isn't my forte to skip lesson.
But I am so exhausted today.
I don't know why.

view of mine

2008-07-12T22:25:00.001+08:00

No promises.

No aticipations.

No expectations.

Not looking for these in others but only from myself.

I live my own life, control my own decision.

Thus, my satisfaction comes from myself.

Only myself can make myself truly satisfy and happy.

I am my own doing.

11th July.

2008-07-12T15:10:00.000+08:00

A month after my birthday.

I studied till late on Friday morning, slept about 2am or 3am to prepare for FMA test.
I reached school about 10am to do some revision for the test with Peiling and Sylvia.

I didn't manage to finish the test. I know how to do it, just a bad management of time.
I'm sadded. Haiz.

School was till 3.30pm.
I took a 30minutes nap before preparing for Aldrin's chalet.

I am officially broke for the week.
So I ate a little dinner before heading down to bishan to meet Cherlyn.
We cabbed to fetch Sam and head down to the chalet.

When we arrived, I felt weird there.
I don't know how should I feel being there but I tried my best to be comfortable, after all it's his chalet. Not mine. Hahas..so of course there are many people I don't know too.

Cherlyn went for to celebrate someone else birthday and left me and Sam there.
We were like chatting and crapping the whole time.
When we came back, no one was bbbq-ing so Sam and I decided to do some bbq-ing.
I didn't realise my bbq skills are not that bad, the chicken wings are nice, cooked and not burnt!

I actually wanted to go up to the room and sleep. I was freaking tired already since 1am plus. So Sam was telling the guys that I am off to bed, so asking if they want to drink.
I had 2 glasses of appletini with sprit. It was light and not very strong alcohol taste, not that bad actually. =)
But I cannot tahan already. I am really tired, so I went up to sleep.
When it was time to go, I woke up, went down to the toilet and when I'm done, I can't stand up.
Hahas, I don't know why.
Maybe I drank with my stomach empty and I went to lie down.
But I managed to walk all the way to the taxi. =)

When I was about to alight from the cab, Shaik offered to send me home but I told him I am fine making my way home.
Once I alighted, I couldn't walk properly and I started to vomit.
Shaik alighted from the cab to offer me tissue and even sent me home.

It was the first time I vomited due to drinking and this time, I didn't even drink a lot.
It has been so long since I last vomited, drinking plus my motion sickness = vomiting.
My throat burnt but after vomiting, I feel so much better. =)

I appreciated you getting me my favourite ice cream.
I actually wanted to eat it when they bought it but I was busy bbqing and I left it in the fridge.
It is not as if I don't like it becuase you bought it, it is just the time and opportunity involved.
Actually I was very tired, I had a long day.
I wanted to sleep so drinking made me more sleepy.
I drank because I was chilling with my friends.
And appletini smelt so nice and I wanted to try it.
I forgotten that lying down once you drink will heighten the alcohol effect.
So I had myself into that state.
I'm sorry, it's your birthday celebration and I screwed your mood.
I'll think twice before going down the next time.

swirl

2008-07-08T00:37:00.000+08:00

Today we had a ritz gang's dinner at the industrial area.
Good food with tom yam soup, vegetables, fried sotong, fried fish in thai style, chicken and chilli prawns. Just have to pay $10 for the sumptous meal.
Today's company include: Leonard, Leon, Wei Quan, Square, Simon, Lynette, Andrew, Jie Wen, VK, Wee Kiat, Pong, Chew Hung, Lian Yin and I.
After dinner 13 of us proceed to Northpoint to chill while Wei Quan went off to meet his friends.
Good chilling company!
I will definitely miss those that went off to army.
Sometimes I'm a litlle not used to not having them calling me auntie.
Hahas..Many of them not working already. =(

Grrr. Someone flied my plane. Not once but a few times.
So maybe I won't have a movie date for long.
Anyone else want to date me out for a movie?

Somehow I started to dislike promises.
There are so many that I heard before and made to me.
How many are fulfilled?
I don't like it when people cannot practise what they preach?
It happened so often.
From young till now.
People who stay in my life or those who have move on, many had made empty promises.

I don't know why I said that.
Or all those I said.
I know that it will somehow upset you.
I don't know what I can do to have you experience the minimal pain.
I felt bad.

Grr. Feel so helpless in these situations I'm in.
Seeing people suffering in pain, people I love but there is nothing I can do.
I always thought I am in control, but I'm not.
Thought that doing things the selfish ways to make myself feel better, but it doesn't.
I am still worried about others.
Am I a bad figure having people going through what they go through?
Did I play a part too?
Am I mean to have my own stand, believe and things I want to achieve where it may not be any thing beneficial to others?

Nothing much at all.

2008-07-06T01:28:00.004+08:00

I feel so transparent at somewhere so familiar.
The expectations from me were high.
Or they were once there and now, they are no longer there?
Am I known to them?
Am I still exist to them?
What more can I do?
I'm already at my limitations.
I feel like I'm fighting a war at the losing end.
Can I just let go and slip into darkness?
Can I just dug a hole and sink myself in?
Can I just ran away and hide away forever?

How many children do you have?
2.
Oh no, 3.
Maybe I'm such an accident.
Why am I fucking bother about Family when they don't fucking bother about me unless they want something from me.
They needed my service, they see me.
If not, only their precious son is in their eyes.

I don't know how much longer I can hold on.
I felt anger. Sorrow. Disappointment. Jealousy. Helpless but not love.
This is my only channel to vent out my frustrations.
When will they know what have I been through?
Oh right, they won't be bothered.

What the fuck is wrong with everything.
I tried my best to look at things in a different light.
How much longer can I conceal.
Maybe this is the best way to learn independent and self reliance.

He and they won.
I pronounced them the winners.
And I am just a dummy.
A backup tool, that is useful once awhile.

I just want to let go.
Slip into darkness.
And there won't be any emotions and troubles for me to bear anymore.

Frustrations

2008-07-05T21:58:00.000+08:00

Buying this handphone seem to be a wrong decision.
The singtel plan sucks.
The handphone has so much problems and it wasn't cybershot. =(
I have to go through so much troubles solving all these.

Met up with Leon in the noon to borrow his spare handphone as mine is goin to the service center.
I alighted at Orchard while he headed to Beach Road to meet Leonard.
I wanted to go alone to the service center but Drin offered his company.
I met him and made our way to service centre.
After that, we had lunch, went to singtel to do my complaint of my inactive IDD caller.
Went over to Starbucks to study and awhile later he left for his grandma's birthday celebration.

I was there alone continued my research for my retail studies but I left for home before 9pm, too hungry.
But guess what?
No dinner.
Yesterday and today. Mum cooked but there isn't much left over.
So, I am stubborn enough not eating anything too.
Don't know why, but I just felt angry over it.
There is always good and sufficient food mum would cook when brother comes home for dinner. But does it means staying at home, I don't deserve to eat?
Maybe.

Grrr.. Today I had a stir at home.
Fuck sial. I thought he has grown up, him being in army and getting marry, I thought he should be so much more sensible.
But no, he is still love to compare sister with him and I.
Claiming that he is a fucking filial son that do good boot licking in front of daddy while I just do what I can do silently.
Being a leo, he is such a show off and braggart to make sure he is the best child they have.

My life is in a deep mess.
Most things are pretty screwed up.
I need to analyse, rearrange and plan them out.
I have enough problems of myself and don't have to add on more of others to mine.
I have no intention to make any decision for anyone other than myself.
Now, I have my stand and things I have to focus on.
I wish you luck.
But I need it more for myself.

=D

2008-07-05T03:03:00.001+08:00

People, I finally have a tag board.
So feel free to tag when you all misses me!
Hahas..more changes will be coming up but I'm tired already. =X

Anyone can help me or teach me how to load song into blogger.com?
=X

worn

2008-07-04T23:20:00.001+08:00

I had a long night yesterday.
School was at 10am.
1pm to 6pm was project and I headed down to city hall.
Gene was late.

So when he arrived, we went to get take away from KFC and some squid beard.
We went to sit around esplanade, hearing the national day rehearsal, picinicing under the stars.
Hahas..that was something I want to do long ago, it was supposed to be something romantic, and doing with some one you fancy but with him..hahas..just made me laugh.

But the catch up session was good.
We were chatted, laughed and joke about those people who were there. =X
The interesting about esplanade, as the day become darker, the more people there will be there?
It was like a crowd big enough for a party to get going.
Hahas..Weird.

It was time to go, I felt the change of my body temperature.
Cold, hot and cold again.
When I stand up, my vision blacked out.
Forehead was cold.

The journey home was hard. I felt as if I was drunk and I couldn't judge my vision well.
I managed to get home safely and awhile later, I'm sleeping like a log.

*Come on people.
It is one and the half month struggle.
From now to exam.
Projects, ,tutorials, tests, quiz, deadlines, presentations and examinations.
Persevere all the way.*

What the fuck I'm doing.
Let it go and focus on your study.
High expectation for others,
but higher for myself.
Stopped venting your anger and expect everyone in your pace.
Don't dance them around your fingers like puppets.
Live my own life the way I planned.

Screwed my body.

2008-07-03T00:17:00.001+08:00

Family problems never subside.
Is there an alternative that I can do?
What is the right way?
I know, they is never a right way.

I finished my tutorials at 2am last night.
Did my dad's accounting for the month of June. Abt 15 companies.
By the time I was done with typing and printing, it was already 4.30am.

I know I needed a minumum of 4hours of sleep if not I will definitely overslept.
But by the time I lay on my bed, it was 5am.
I have to wake up at 8am for the school at 9am.

I managed to not to be late = I slept for only 3hours.
I had diarrohea plus gastrics in the morning, running to the toilet a few times. Grrr..
I had a bomb prata and a hot milo for breakfast.

I had marketing hospitality project from 3-6.30pm today.
Before project I had chicken maccroni and I thought my tummy was fine.
But gastrics happened again when I went to Hello! at AMKHub about 8.30pm after reaching home awhile.
I wanted to sleep once I'm home.
But due to my dear brother, he dragged on the porting of my old mobile number from Starhub to Singtel for a month. Now, I had to pay for both bills. Grrr.

Luckily Lina picked me up from AMKHub and drove me to return my library books.
Great, I forgotten to return one of it. Grr..I have to go back again.
It was so so over due. =X

After she drove Alywine to Nee Soon Camp (just behind our estate), we headed home.
Talking to her, this persistent problem has been happening for long.
For her, 4 years.
It has alot of impacts on her, it has made her from recovery and slide back into darkness.

Her story was slightly similar to mine.
Talking to heri is like she is my reflection.
Facing my problem, my history all over again.
I'm just slightly lucky, It was shorter.
Memories as much.
But I know what I want.
Mind over heart.
I am determine and stubborn enough to make it the way I want it.

I talked to her till 11pm.
It has been long since I talked to her.
Darling, no matter what, I'm here for you.
Just look for me..4 houses away.
I'll be there for you.

I have to go to bed soon.
I have been surviving on 3hours of sleep.
Before that, I'm eating crabs! =X
I can never resist seafood. =X

I know, I have been sleeping after 3am every day for 4 weeks.
Sleeping time like 4am, 5am or even 7am.
Sleeping like 3 to 6hours each time.
I know I have been eating irregular meals.
I'll rest to take care of my body.
But there is so much to do, so little time.
I'll..I'll try my best.

I need sleep.

can you spare a thought for me?

2008-06-30T21:01:00.000+08:00

Why am I the one always worry for things and try my best to make sure things will work at the end of the day?

I am tired,exhausted and stressed.
I slept at 3am on friday morining and attended reached school at 10.30am for project.
I went to work and slept at 5.30am on saturday.
I woke up at 12plus to go to work and slept at 7.30am on sunday morning.
I slept at 4am this morning and reached school at 9.30am.

Why must school work and family matters always come together?
I really have alot of things on my hand to do.
I needed to get them done but no one fucking understand me!!

I am tired of going through this all over again and again and again and again.

I am fucking sick and tired!!!

Yes, you did your part as a brother, you help me when I need you most.
Didn't I help you out, when you ask me too?
If I can, I did it for you.
Fuck.
I was preparing for test, tutorials and presentation when you ask me to help out the business.
I did my part.
But I am fucking tired and I had a ica presentation tml.

Many times.
Many times I slept late doing dad's accounts, helping out at home ended doing my school work late.
Many times you want me to help you out with the delivery and ended up alighting me somewhere quite a distance from the place you promised to alight me. I didn't complain.
Does it means being nice should always fucking be taken advantage off?!
Yet, you always expect good grades from me.
Telling me relationship will affect studies, but your way of making me part of your business isn't making it worse?

I needed money, can you help me?
You won't, telling me how much you had spend on the house yet I work you complaint that I work outside.
What the fuck you want from me?
Why can't you fucking understand me?
You always claim that you help me, but I did my part as your sister, I did something too.
Or many things.
Or to you, helping me out needed a favour to return and whatever I do, the favour can never be return.

Can't I be fucking selfish once awhile.
Sparing thoughts for people are so tiring.
I do it for others.
Who are there to spare a thought for me?

Many times, I wished that I do not exist that i will just vanished into thin air.

To do list.

2008-06-26T21:55:00.001+08:00

Kim's MUST DO LIST
1) Book my driving test for my upcoming TP.
2) Do my projects researches and my part for the projects.
4) I have oral presentation for French on Monday. I have to practise it.
5) This week: I having project meetings on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday.
6) Do my tutorials.
7) A chatting session with one and a movie session with another next week.
8) Sunday, tanning session with ritz girls!!
9) Bring my handphone down to Sony Ericsson to service and have a software installation.
10) Find my handphone screen protector. Any one saw G900 screen protector around? =(
11) Do exam revision.
12) Meet another 2 friends. One for movie and dinner and another one for shopping and coffee.
13) I working on Friday and Saturday.
14) I want to work more! I want to have more income. So that I can spend it on my sweet escape, desserts and movies.
15) Heroes Season 3. Where are you? Anyone has them? I am desperate to watch them.

16) Most importantly thing to do, I need to focus on my studies.
Focus Focus Focus.

Clubbing session will wait till my exams over eh?
With the Ritz darlings, my clique and Roxanne. =)

Those who want to date me, let me know in advance eh?
Hahas..So that I can put you in my schedule. =)

Well, off to do my driving booking then my Hospitality, Resort and Leisure project research.
But off for dinner first.
Then prepare for school and work tomorrow.

I shall update more regularly..=)

Long long week.

2008-06-26T19:27:00.003+08:00

Sunday: 22nd June 2008
I were supposed to go tanning with the Ritz girls. But it started raining and it was postponed once again. =(
The meeting time was 1.30pm and my darlings are all late! Hahas..
There were Sam, Serene, Sheralyn and Ivy; the arrangement was based on periodic arrival. Hahas..For Cherlyn, She went to Suki Sushi herself. She thought all of us were there already.

Hahas..Yea, I was broke yet I have Suki Sushi buffet with the girls. See..I always love my darlings! Hahas..We ate like we had been starved for a few days. Our order were a long long list.
The waiting time for our corn sushi, potato salad and cha soba was horrendenously long.
My god. Never eat their cha soba.
The sauce was tasteless.
The noodles were limp and no taste.
Since when did Kim says the food is not nice? Seldom right?
Therefore, when Kim commented on how horrible the food is, it is seriously unable to make it!

But the staffs were pretty poor thing. The queue was long and they had shortage of staffs.

After lunch, I went home to study for my upcoming tests. Horrible.
I had a long night studying for my PMS test and editing my Wiki website for tomorrow's presentation.
Slept about 3am.
Monday: 23rd June 2008
School at 9am.
PMS Quiz I didn't do well. I forgotten to study the textbook I bought. I forgotten it totally.
Haiz. I had back FMA test. I didn't fare well. Haiz.
Studied International Cross Culture. Test at 12pm.
I had to check and correcting my French written assignment.
Plus I have to do my other French assignment. =(
Have to submit both tommorrow.
Haiz.
I slept late again. Slept about 3am.

Tuesday:24th June 2008
School at 10am. Dad gave me a ride to school. I am fucking tired.
Lucky there isn't much French lesson, I managed to study for the test.
Talking to Diane distracted me. Hahas..But I really do enjoyed talking to her.

After school, I went and met up with an old friend.
He was supposed to go for his BTT trial. But he assumed he was smart enough to skip it and don't believed old ginger(me) that there is a certain quota to hit.
Well, meeting him, I had free milk tea. Hahas.. It has been so long since we last talked casually.
I was a little guilty. I was late for dinner and I have to leave early. Hahas..Sorry dude.

After the chat up, I went to amkhub to catch movie with Pei and Syl.
We were supposed to watch 7.30pm show but ended up we bought the tickets late. The girls had dinner at New York New York while I do my ESSR tutorial. Hahas.
After that, we went NTUC and shopped for tidbits!
We watched Penelope.
It was a nice movie.
Magically and sweet. =)

Just that I had a irritating group of people sitting behind me.
I had a guy with his leg sticking in between Pei and my seat.
And the guy who sat behind me, have been kicking my seat. I nearly screamed at him.
But I managed to tolerate it. =)

Well, I was really exhausted and wanted to go home after school. But I don't want to miss those activities I can have with friends.
Once I'm home, wash up, online awhile and sleep.
For a long long time about 3 weeks, I have nt been sleeping early.
1 am was early for me.
Compare to my 3am to 4am every night.

Wednesday: 25th June 2008
I didn't want to get out of my bed.
Lesson at 9am.
I want to sleep a little longer.
At 8.50am, I am still at my house bus stop.
I took advantage of the 10minutes grace and manage to reach school about 9.17am.
Eugene Pang's lesson is always enriching and chim..hahas..
Looking at his handsome figure also make studying easier. Plus his humour. =)

I accompanied Shu Hui to wait for her boyfriend after school and I head home.
I am exhausted.
I just slept on the bed.
I woke up at 7pm, had dinner and watched tv.

I wanted to study but my mind couldn't focus.
Grrr..maybe it was the exhaustion or I didn't have the urgency.
I was chatting online and watching tv. =X

I managed to study about 12am plus to 4am.
Tired.
Went to bed.

Thursday:26th June 2008
Today, the alarm rang twice.
Mum woke me up once.
Maid woke me up the second time.
I am tired.

During lecture sat next to Shu Hui made me can't focused.
Hahas..been talking to her. =X

Lesson ended at 12pm and test at 5pm.
Shuhui went home to accompany her dog. MJ went to find her friends.
Syl, Pei and I had lunch at South canteen.
Hahas.. I was like waving non stop.
I saw so many of my friends!!
I saw Melissa, Angie, Qing, Rachel, De Wei and Daniel.
Hahas.. should be that much?
Hahas.. Happy happy. I love bumping into my friends.

After lunch, we head to library room to study.
We had a group discussion and remembering the Marketing Hospitality test points were much better..=)

Marketing Hospitality test was bad.
I don't understand the questions and I just try my best to ans them. =X
*pray hard that I'll pass all my 3tests*

French oral on monday. =(

Tanned!

2008-06-20T01:26:00.002+08:00

I watched with my movie khaki, Des yesterday. It was much funnier and better than Kung Fu Panda. (Ps: Leon, if you are reading, you really should watch Zohan, trust me.) hahas..
There is this green dress/top I saw at Forever21 that I like alot. I wanted to get it but Des asked me not to and it stayed in my mind through out the movie. Hahas..But I bought it today. =)
Well, I'm going down to Marina Square TopShop tommorrow to buy that bag I like. Hahas..I don't need a sugar daddy, but a sweet dad. =)
Sometimes i don't know what is he thinking. He is being nice or nasty at times. =X But I still love him very much! =D
I went tanning with Roxanne today. Since we graduated from secondary school we always wanted to go out but we finally made it today. Hahas..We thought the weather wasn't good as it is raining yesterday plus it looked gloomy at yishun but we still proceed to Sentosa. But the sun was good!! Good sunny sun.

We were chatting with good scenery and sights around.
We did some tanning on the beach and proceed to CafeDelmar after that. It was a good decision. Cooling drinks, good comfort and great company. Interesting sights of transvasitves. One of them even exposed her nipples like nobody business. Maybe he is pretty desprate to be noticed.
But nevertheless, we still enjoy ourselves at the seats and the pool..snapping pictures away with her waterproof camera. =D
The date was great, she treated me lunch, we took loads of pictures, gossipped, chatted, laughed, and we got tanned. =)

AND I bought that green top/dress from Forever21. =D

Loads of photos are with her and I shall upload them soon after she sent me.
Thanks darling. I had a good day today. It was such an enojoyable day. Do take care eh?Loves!!

After Tanning.

Tasty lunch!

Next Sentosa Tanning Session this sunday with Ritz Darlings. Looking Forward ! =D

Studying? Studying.

2008-06-17T00:34:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I was meeting Peiling at Ang Mo Kio to go down to Cineleisure to catch Kung Fu Panda. Guess what? We saw Min Jia on the saw train at the same cabin. Hahas..There is such coincidences eh?
We had our dinner at Xing Wang Cafe. The baked rice wasn't that nice. The plates were hot but the rice and meat taste cold. Kung Fu Panda wasn't that nice and funny as I expected. Maybe high expectation lead to high disappointment?
Lucky Peiling company was good. Gossiping as usual. =)

I took the bus home from my favourite bus driver. When it was approaching my place I went to have a chat with him and he asked, " Your boyfriend didn't send you home recently?" Hahas..I told him that I'm single now and he tell me, it's ok, there is many "cars" out there.

I had my FIRST meal outside alone. I was waiting for Sandy today at Thomson Plaza. But I was really hungry so I went to Pizza Hut and ordered my food. If those who knows me, they should know I have this phobia of eating alone. But this time, I have my novel to keep me company. I had the food at my own sweet time and savouring them alone isn't that scary after all.

Studying at the Starbucks there always "give" me the mood to study.
I am done with my French written assignment and part of my oral presentation is done.
I did some understanding for Marketing Hospitality and did some notes for it.
But life isn't that easy.

Monday: Wiki presentation and PMS quiz.
Tuesday: International Cross Culture ICA.
Thursday: Marketing ICA.

My cheeks are feeling hot. Hope I don't get sick. Loads of work is waiting for me to do. =(

old buddy

2008-06-14T14:14:00.002+08:00

Well, today I wanted to do my tutorials and projects researches since I can't really go out today.
But, the modem was damn irritating. It only works now. I can't accessed the internet at all during the day.

Johnson called me today, asked me out for belated birthday dinner. It was about 7.15pm. I was thinking. Should I go? But my internet was down and there wasn't dinner so I agreed.

It has been so long since I last went out with him la. He is always busy with his hockey and floorball. Never have sufficient time for himself.

We had Sushi Tei at Thomson Plaza. He was so excited eating there. Hahas..He already planned what he want to order before I arrived. Maybe having him workingthere makes his recommendation good?
Hahas..we had like golden roll, huge steam boat, the beef roll with mushroom, fried tofu, fried squid, grilled scallops with mayo, chocolate waffle ice cream, green tea.
Hahas..the server actually questioned our ability to finish the food. We were damn full. When we were ask to have our last order, he even order jumbo yakitori. Hahas..in the end we need to have it take away. BLOATED.
Total bill : $73.

Hahas..so damn expensive after the discount. =X We really eat a lot sial.
After eating, we went to starbucks and slack with coffee. =)
Hahas..He idiot sial, I was supposed to leave at 10pm, he didn't tell me wanna to chat more with me. Buddy, there is always next time. =)

Seriously, I enjoyed talking to him. I laughed out loud like nobody. It has been so long since I laughed out so loud and happily..Hahas.. Those incidents he told me were so funny la.

This good buddy of mine that I have know for since secondary 1.
Now, I'm already 19. I have known him for 6years.
But seeing him everytime makes me relax and able to relate my life to him easily.
John, my friend, good luck on your on coming tournament.. let me know when is the finals and I'll go support eh? hahas..In the meantime, I shall wait for your next free day and we shall hang out again..=)

post mortem

2008-06-12T23:52:00.000+08:00

Though the celebration was great last night but the closure wasn't that good.

I went to school to do project today.
They realised the different me and all of them were a little lost for awhile.
Hahas..well, too much to conceal sometimes eh?

Well, the girls were sweet and I think they were jealous that I lost some weight because they bought 5 slices of different kind of cakes for me to eat.
2 chocolate cake, 1 black forest, 1 strawberry short cake and 1 fruit cake.

I realised a lot of people know I love fruits cake eh?hahas..

Didn't manage to do much for the project.. Too much to do and we don't know what we can start with eh?

Brother picked me up from school today. He was guiding me how to drive the right way.
Hahas..he knows the rules well that he like to play with it.
Today dinner was good.
It has been so long I ate this full and this much.
White fish mee hoon, prawns, fried meat roll, vege, fish head, big head(shell meat), satay and chicken wings for 5 pax. Hahas..god damn full.
It was at my family usual dinning place. Brother paid the bill and send us home.
Yea, at dinner I was quiet. Nothing much to say. But life goes on..=)

Pictures of my birthday will be posted up soon eh..soon..=)

11th of June

2008-06-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

yesterday celebration was great.
I was told to meet at city hall but no one was there. A stranger came out to me and gave me 3roses. When I asked her about my friends she said she doesn't know and I had to follow the card to find my other 6 roses.

The second stop was at city link concierge opposite New York New York. Hahas..The lady wished me happy birthday when they passed me the 5 other roses to me.
The last rose was "somewhere above" the marina square atrium. There is no way I can find it. While, it was shifted somewhere out of place. I managed to call Cherlyn and found the rest was already at Pizza Hut.

It has been so long I last had such a huge group outing.There is Cherlyn, Serene, VK, Ivy, Kian Pong, Sherelyn, Yun Tong, Lih Wee, Lian Yin, Samantha, Simon, Leonard, Leon, Wei Quan, Ash, Jie Wen, Wei Long Fabian, Audrey and Andrew. Shaik met us for the clubbing at night. Kelina was such a sweetheart came all the way just to give me the present.
We had dinner at Pizza Hut and they bought me mango cake from Jake's Place.Well, they know I love strawberries and mango so they got me mango cake with strawberries. =D So sweet of them.

Some of them didn't want to go club at night but ended up, everyone went. EVERYONE. All of them so on sial. Yun tong had to report camp in the next day's morning while Ivy and Simon actually don't like clubbing but all are very sporting people. =D
Interestingly, I saw Sharon's bestie, Kat at St James which is also Cherlyn bestie..hahas..the world is sure small. =)

Ivy, Serene, Sherelyn and Cherlyn..We will go dancing again eh? Hahas.. I love dancing with you girls..Loves.

I enjoyed the company very much. Thanks for making this birthday such a memorable one.Thanks for the cap, perfume, watch, body foam, photo frame and 19 roses.

Peeps, thanks for being such a sweetheart to through the effort of what to buy for me and make it such a memorable birthday. Though I left the night early, I hope everyone had enjoyed themselves. LOVE YOU PEOPLE!!

*Girl, I know you are having a hard time going through what it is now.. no matter what, I have been through what you been through too. No matter what, I'll be there for you like how you are there for me eh?*

Tuesday with Morrie on my birthday.

2008-06-11T15:22:00.001+08:00

Well, I don't know why, but I'm not really keen on celebrating my birthday this year. It could be with issues around or maybe I don't want to expect anything that will lead to disappointment. =)

Well, I'm awake even before 12pm today.
I don't know why, but I have this urged to read this book.
Tuesday with Morrie.
The title just struck my mind the other day I'm at the library.
A book I went through the effort to find.

This book has philosophy which I love and has elderly people that makes me wanna cry.
Morrie, a sociology professor that reunited with his favourite student 16years later after his graduation. The reason for their reunion is because he is dying slowly.
It is a true story. An inspirational and enlightenment one.

The moment I woke up today, I curled on the bed reading it. After wash up, I was reading it while eating and I continued reading it in bed.
The more I read, the lesser I am keen to read on.
Reading about the process of someone healthy to bed ridden and to death isn't easy.
It has been long since I cried much while reading.
I hate death. I don't like the idea of people dying in books or movies.

If my death is upon me, I hope it gives me time to bid goodbye to my love ones.
Give me time to do things that I always want to but blindly believe they can wait.
Give me another chance to correct my mistakes.
Give me time to have people still remember me if i'm gone.
Give me a little more time to make myself useful for one last time.
And not just taken away by god suddenly.
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I learnt something from the book.

A few rules to be true about love and marriage:

If you don't respect the other person, you're gonna have a lot of trouble.

If you don't know how to compromise, you're gonna have a lot of trouble.

If you can't talk openly about what goes on between you, you are gonna have a lot of trouble.

And if you don't have a common set of values in life, you're gonna have a lot of trouble.

Your values must be alike.

Love each other or perish.

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Sometimes, look around you.

Slow down and be attentive to those who you are in conversation with.

Give them the full attention they deserved.

It looks like everyone is sleepwalking and going after what they feel that they should be chasing.

But is that what they really want in life?

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A teacher affects eternity; he can never tell where his influence stops - Henry Adams
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Now that Morrie influenced me. I hope I can spread his teaching a little further from here.

No worries people, you are still reading a 19th year old lady's blog.
I may be just a little more sentimental because my parents forgotten my birthday?
Hahas..so what it is a birthday? So what if they were crying with joy today 19 years ago that I was born?
It is just an ordinary day I mentioned before.
I should be contented eh? At least I have the book to celebrate my birthday with me before my meet my friends in the evening..

sign off.
Kim
In life be contented therefore there will be minimal disappointment.

birthday

2008-06-10T23:20:00.001+08:00

Well, this is going to be my third consective birthday being single.
But I'm glad every single one of them was celebrated with friends who make such an effort to have them special for me.
Thanks for making them special to me though it was just a normal day. =)

Making out the missing posts.

2008-06-10T14:27:00.001+08:00

Friday
I watched a great movie. Finally, I'm able to loosen myself from all those tight schedule and tests.

Saturday
I was working again. I meet Serene before work, we ate at Ritz because she said it has been awhile she has been eating at the canteen and she claimed the food was delicious that day..hahas..maybe the chef has better mood during weekends eh?

I feel guilty. The event was Indian Wedding. I didn't really managed to do much over at my group today. I was stuck doing usher even when the event started. The organisers was pretty inefficient. They have no one on the floor to ensure the correct seating was done and everyone seat is taken by everyone else. The speech was done and guests are still coming me.

When I'm resumed back to my group, there was this long stopage when speeches and performance are progressing. So I didn't managed to do much..Only able to do some clearing when the stopage was over.

Soon, I was out doing the dessert line.
Many guests that I have attended to, have been questioning my nationality and they managed to guess my nationality right.
Hmmm..It has been going on since cocktail session to dessert buffet.
Not one but like 4 or 5 people?
Hahas..so i asked managed to find out from them that, not the way I look or the way I speak but the way I serve is different from Singaporeans.
Singaporeans tend to be more formal and business like whereas I'm more friendly and attentive. =)
It was a good feeling to be praised once awhile by the guests eh? There was this one middle age Indian man after talking to me, wanted my number. =.=
I was taken aback and told him the staffs are not allow to give our contacts to them..hahas..=D

*I know something has been going around the workplace about my past. If there is doubt, you can clarify with me..but after clarifying with me and you still believe in what you hear rather then what I say then you have already made your own judgement but not knowing the truth.*

Sunday
Sorry Cherlyn, Ivy and Serene. We were supposed to go tanning but due to the release of Sony Ericsson's G900. I went to buy it. Thanks for being sweet enough to postponed the tanning session. =) *Loves*

Monday
Early birthday celebration with the girls was great. Lunch was horrible at the Korean shop at cineleisure, it;s the very first time I tasted horrible Korean cuisine. yucks!
Then we headed down to Cafe Delmar. Their screaming orgasm is not nice. It is not ice blended at all. Zouk's drink was much better. It was a good bonding session for the clique. =)

Girls, thanks for your effort for planning this celebration plus the wallet and belt that you all bought for me. I like them..=)
Thanks girls..loves you girls to bits.. =)

Falling in love again.

2008-06-05T20:43:00.002+08:00

AH!
The gang are dancing and drinking the night away. I wanna to be there too. But on a schooling day, I can't be home late if nt I'll die la..=X
Hope you guys are enjoying and will enjoy more on Wednesday!! =)

Today is my last test before the holiday.
It has been so long since I give myself a break.
Giving my time to my friends and to studies.
It exhausted me.

But I have a date today.
A date with myself.
After lunch with the girls at Mosburger, I head to AMK library alone.
It has been long since I indulged myself in reading. I grabbed like 10books. =X
But the maximum I can borrowed was 8 so I ended up reading 4 in the library and borrowed 5 home. =D
I bought vanilla ice blended to end off the great date. But the drink is no longer as nice as it used to be..=(
I heard coffee bean has nice vanilla ice blended..I'll try it next time..=D

I'm in love with being single now. I'm pretty set not to let anyone else to come in between me and myself..=) Not for a long time at the moment.
Hahas..psst..I'm in love with starbucks vanilla latte too.

Ahhh..I'll be very very busy for this coming holiday.
Project meetings for 3 to 4 modules and my 2 french assignment to be handed up after holiday.
I want to date my lovable friends.
Doing some celebrations here and there.
I want to earn some cash for my red Sony Ericsson G900.
Anyone knows is it out in the market already?!
Awww..the phone that I go gaa gaa for..=X

I miss receiving roses..aww...looking at su ann's friendster makes me envy.

Busy days.

2008-06-04T23:06:00.001+08:00

Monday:
Syl, Min Jia, Shu Hui and I celebrated Peiling's 18th Birthday.
Happy birthday girl. =)

We had a hair cut after school, the three of us, Syl, Pei and I.
Hahas..finally I have something alittle different from my usual look.=)

After that we had Sakae buffet at Bishan and Pei left for school.
She seemed alittle upset leaving us, maybe because most of the plans is not excuted, the Mustafa and watching Sex and the City.

But the ending is sweet.
We surprised her by going back to school at night with cupcakes for birthday cake.
Hehehe..we are so sweet that she teared.

No worries darling, there is another celebration coming up eh? =)

Tuesday:
Today was Essential Retail Studies test. After school I went to Thomson Plaza Starbucks to study with Df. The environment suit my study enivronment plus they have Vallina Latte.
I have my craving satisfied. =D
I even had Oreo Cheesecake. My god, they oreo cheesecake is as good. =)
Thanks for your company. =)
I was totally exhausted when I'm home.
For a long time I had slept early at 10.30pm.

Wednesday:
Did the last minute study before test.
Took a nap once I'm home.
Now I have to study for Hospitality, Resort and Leisure Industry. The last test of the week.
Wish me luck people. =)

*Cherlyn, thanks for planning and organizing the plans for me..Love you babe =)*