Tiring week

Well, it has been a tiring week for me. This whole week, there are many make up lessons and I ended up having lesson 4 days at 9am and 1 day lesson at 10am.
My god. So not used to it.
I don't know know those 3rd year students can make it through.

I watched Made of Honour yesterday. Thanks for the strawberry pocky. It is damn ex la but very nice. =X

Great company, great movie. I has been awhile since I have teared watching a movie.
Yea, I teared a little. Not those noisily crying. I don't do that.

There are international cross cultural studies presentation and financial management accounting test tml.
And 3 more tests next week:
1) Internet application for hospitality industry
2) Essential retail studies
3) Hosplitality, resort and leisure industry.
My god.
After holiday, there are more presentations, projects and tests..grrr.

Well, at least I'll be able to enjoy the 2 week holiday and my birthday.

Life is getting interesting.=)

Mon and tues were boring. Lesson started at 9am on both days and worst, today, it ended at 6pm.
I had good food these 2days. Monday I had baked rice at pizza with the girls and chill at coffee bean after that. Tues, though my breakfast was egg muffin meal bt my dinner was good!
I met Ned and Serene to have the polos changed. Serene and I headed for dinner. We ordered Kimchi ramen and have a side of spicy pork to go with. Awww..the cold and rainy weather made the dinner taste so much better.
Good food and good company.
Her company is always good. =)
We chatted all the way since we met and even bought durian pan cake to eat..nice. =)
Hahas..she says she will chiong work with me.
There is me there is her there isn't me, there isn't her.
Hahas..

I want to go US Disneyland, Orlando for attachment!
It will be my yr3 april to set off.
6months attachment with Disneyland staying over their apartment.
The pay will be $7 per hour with about minimum 30-40hours a week.
8hours of school a day each week at a university there, studying 4 relevant modules plus ungergo exams.
Ahh..the only turn off is to pay abt $13k to go and maybe we will earn back abt $8k or $9k in Disneyland.
I'll strive hard and go with the clique.
We are on don't we?=)
Save up so that we can go to the beaches there, go there and splurge a little on shopping! =)

I'll be watching movie tomorrow. Finally, I get to enjoy. =)

hahas..26th May,At least I can say that I did that once in my life. I'm still young, it worth the shot doesn't it?

I AM ME!

I have been reading. Reading alot here and there.

I realised I am not the only one who had tried, sacrified, worried and tried compromising so much. Knowing that break up will be a good solution but the pain of the heart breaking hurt so badly that you can't even breathe. There are many people out there especially my female friends around me are suffering this.
I don't know why, but when someone compromises, it has been taken for granted and when that person no longer able to give in more, does that makes the person a bad girlfriend? When one keeps giving, the other kept enjoying that the other party no longer give.Seriously, no expectation leads to no disappointment. But with expectation there is where we can find happiness in them. But what is the point, it needs two hand to clap.
Fuck.
This is my side of story, you can find out the other side.
But it doesn't matter to me anymore.

I know it has been a few weeks but its shadow have been tailing me.
At work, it is great working with friends I know.
BUT PLEASE! I AM KIM! NOT SOMEONE ELSE GIRLFRIEND!
WE ARE OVER.
WE ARE JUST FRIEND!
I am capable of who I am, I don't need such connection to prove my capablility.
I am glad to have my new found friends.
Thanks for lending me a listening ear and please help me to spread the message that I am sick and tired of explaining where is his whereabouts.

I know I shouldn't be complaining these but I think I have been putting a front long enough.
Act as if it doesn't matter. I know I am strong, but please I need time.

I hope this is the last time I'm mentioning my relationship.
Because, the next one will be long long time later.

Believe me, I'll come back strong. I will be who I am.

*I know you cares for me, been there for me. But don't always tell me what I should do or what I shouldn't do. Telling me what is right or wrong is not just judge by you..there is thinking in me to know what I want to do. It is not me who don't want to spend happy time but maybe because I don't have such a good crowd of friends always there no matter when.*

Friday.

In the afternoon, met Serene for lunch before work.
It never been a moment of boredom with her..hahas..
Work started at 2pm on Friday and I ended work at 12am.
I was working under Fabian today, 5 staffs to 4 tables that had only 23guests..lucky day for us.=D
Working with Fabian was good. Hahas..we can gossips and no stress working with him.

When work ended, the east people asked me to go to Tampines to eat supper with them..hahas..it has been long since I go there and it was so far la..
Hahas..They asked me why did I stay so far? But where is the starting point to began with?Hahas..Next time eh..next time I'll have supper with them..=)

I had supper. Not as if we both are hungry, but just wanna to chill out and talk. We walked from Ritz to Paragon. Chilling at coffee bean, drinking latte.

the day.

Things didn't went well today at driving. Another attempt is needed.
I don't know what the hell went wrong neither why do I have that kind of mix feelings in me.

I went to meet the rest today, it fun mixing with them though I am the newest in the clique.
Alittle left out at the gathering today but it's fine..I'm there as a friend, not as a friend's girlfriend. The feeling of recognition is good.
The meal was super filling. I didn't manage to finish the rice..hahas..it is usual now that I only eat a bit more than half for 1 or 2 meals a day.
Oh ya, thanks for the ride home, do take care eh.=)

Today, is like the first time I don't feel awkward alone. Alone sitting at the Coffee Bean, surfing the net, doing project and listening to songs.
I think I'm fine dating myself..It is good that way. =)

D, thanks for the food stuffs. You are nearly the 2nd person who travelled from the east to nyp to pass me sweet stuffs and go home..hahas..lucky you are there to do some conditioning in school. If not I'll be real guilty.
Thanks..=)

the 21st.

Hahas..school was a long day. Lesson was supposed to be 8am to 6pm. Hahas..lucky ICCA lesson cancelled so I end up at chatting and gossipping with the girls. Hahas..

Hahas..tml is a big big day for me! Hahas..My TP date is tml!
hahas..people, please give me your blessings!

Holiday.

Hahas..somehow I don't enjoy holiday.
Maybe I just don't need one yet. Something invaded my mind today.Though I know it has always been somewhere there but I just don't understand why does it has to appear again.
I can't concentrate on whatever I'm doing today.

Lina drove me down to Island Creamery to have some ice cream.
Yeah, ice cream has always been my favourite and makes me feel better.
I had bundung and soursop while she had Teh Tarik and Latte and we shared an apple pie.

We were supposed to go reservoir to blow bubbles and take pictures after that.
So that our mood will be better.
But, there is always a but. My parents need me to be home to help them out. Arrgh.
It is not that I don't like helping them out, but it's just that I have projects n tutorials to do. I can't concentrate on them and there is like many things are piling up.
I need to get those thoughts OUTTA MY HEAD.

My appetite isn't back yet. I can't complete a meal nowadays. Argh!

Is there anyway to feel better mentally?!
*Simon, if you are reading, please come out with ideas that makes me feel better and not what that has been in your mind all these while eh?!*