knight in shining armour, where are you?

Last Sunday, I was at Northpoint getting some stuffs from Sylvia and met M for lunch.
This time, it was me staring at him eating instead of the other way round.
Well, I didn't mean to do that, but just don't feel like eating.

After meeting M, I headed down to AMKHub to get more things and went home.

I have to reach the dinner venue about 6pm.
By the time I reached Clarke Quay, it was still raining.
No cab to be found, searching everywhere.
I even walked the wrong direction. =X

Thanks for picking me up, if not I think it will take me pretty long to get there.

Feel awkward there. Slightly lonely. But it is a wedding.
You don't expect to know everyone because you are one of the guests too.

The bride and groom are really loving.
Looking at their pictures, videos and behaviours really set me envious.
One day, I'll find my knight in shining armour.
He will give me all his love, faithfulness, honesty and trust?

Seriously, I need to go dating.
If not when can I meet my Mr Right? =X

When you are struggling in the water, you thought of life buoy.
Once it aids you to the land, you just dump it aside.

so that is it

I went to Sun Tec today to get my stuff.
But I only manage to get my luggage.
You may call me stupid.
The luaggage + the safety security lock = $203sgd.
So expensive. =.=
I still have so much more to buy.
Tell me, how much more does this attachment going to cost more?

Going to get more of my stuff tml.
Hope you can make it tml. =)

The hardest thing that can be control should be your personal emotions I guess.
Easily influence by alot of factors.
Though I think I handled it pretty well venting them on *ahem*.
Hahas. Thanks man.
For keeping yourself awake to be scolded and irritated by me.

I saw something coincidence today.
I want to know the person. =)
Maybe, he/she is my twin? my soulmate? hahas.

Those reading there. I understand what it means.
Word for word.
Just like I was in her shoes.
And she was in mine.

hey, I was being sarcastic and out to irritate you.
I did it.
But upsetting people is seriously not enjoyable.
Though I've always been good at getting you mad.
I was just joking.
You know, praising you, you usually fly up the sky.
I'm sorry.
Smile, getting angry makes you ugly eh. =)
Good luck eh.
All the best.

I learnt

Hmmm.I thought so too.
Maybe this is why, it happened.
Not trying to blame.
Just trying to express.
Leave it and not understanding it.
Things don't fall from the sky to give me what I want.
Work the way through, sacrifice certain things to gain certain things.
An effort to balance both ways.
No pain no gain.
Attempted to understand but was unavail.

Maybe the reason will never be found.
Maybe it is just a misunderstanding.
Maybe.

But I believe, there is an answer.
Just whether anyone willing to find out or to tell.
Maybe one day, we will be told.
Anyway, its over.
We got to move on with our lives.

Making an effort.
Every little things count.
None wanted such a result.
But sure, memories will always be there.

once and for all

I read something interesting.
What you perceive or what other percieve may not be the truth.
Did you make an effort to find out the truth?
Did you make an effort to avoid such disappointment?
Others did.
Intiatives made but was rejected.
Not once or twice but many times that trying seem unavailable.

Other party feels that it doesn't really matter.
You feel that things should be this way.
But there isn't just a single side of the story.
Yours.
Theirs.
And the truth.

Blaming self is hard.
But losing something important due to your pride is it worth it?
Maybe you feel you deserve better.
Maybe you feel others are better.

Seek the truth with your heart.

Wow.
I think my blog has spider web already. =X
Sorry folks for my irregular update. =X

Last few weeks were hectic.
Rushing projects, power point editing and presentations.
So much things to do before CNY.

After 8 years, I went back to Malaysia for CNY with my family and Da Sao.
Hahas. I went back to Muar and Ipoh, Jiang Sa for a visit.
Grandma's "Ata Chu" was horribly infested with ants, spiders, dust and loads of other insects.
Especially mosquitoes. I look horribly. Swollen bumps on my legs, hands and hands. =(
Cleaning and perparing prayers there was a long chore.
The good thing there?
Reminsic the old times there.
My childhood memories and my family all time favourite: ASAM FISH! ATE 3 TIMES IN 2 DAYS! =D

Back to Jiang Sa.
The atmosphere there was weird.
Every little action seem to be scruntinized, they were just waiting for a moment that whatever you say or do is to be put in the bad light.

So lucky for my family, we are good terms with most of the cousins than the elderly.
We escape to the town area for asam laska (3 times in 2 days again =X), went to a cafe to eat and bought Da Sao's birthday cake as her birthday is on the new year eve. After that we went to K Box in Ipoh to sing. Hahas. 1st time i sing with my siblings, with my cousins. Pretty good feeling though. =)

I feel that uncle is well off but mum did so much over there, preparing, cooking and cleaning for others. =(

Days over in Malaysia we woke up damn early. Like 7am, 8am everyday. =(
She is already so tired from the long journey there, tiring days of cleaning that old house, perparing prayers for 2 days yet have to slog her time there where there is a maid hiding somewhere else and not out helping to prepare meals or clean up. =X
I washed like 30-40 over bowls, pair of chopsticks and spoons man.
Nevermind. Lucky we are there only once a year.

Now, I shall just mug for my exams, hotel ops notes done.
5 more to go. JIA YOU.

ANYWAY.
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!

dreaming of being a pamper princess

Stress.
All the projects and deadlines arriving.
Unmanageable time available between members, trying to figure out the right project directions and trying to finish 6 projects.
2 projects due on Monday and Tuesday.
God bless me man. =(
I only left with 4 weeks before exams is here.
Gosh.
Should I go back to Malaysia?
24-27 Jan.
But I'm having 6 examinable papers and the trip cut through half of my study week.
HOW?? =(

Girls love to be pamper.
Do they derserved to be pamper and treated like a princess?
I'm demanding to be pampered nowadays.
Want more compromise from others.
I think I gave in too much in the past I guess. Hahas.
=X

But isn't it nice being pampered?
Being the one who is given in by others,
having somemore to be observant of your little moves.
Having someone to care, someone to share the sorrow and joy.
Someone to make sure things are well taken for you, just want you to be happy.
Yet, not asking anything in return.
Awww.
It sound good doesn't it?
I think i'm like describing what a parents willing to do.
Hahas.
But sometimes, I do hope to they do have some be able pay a little care, attention and love to their children.
Dad is having mood swing again. =(
he is just keeping his problems to himself?
Or manupause ? (Though I know it only happens to older woman)
What i can do, is to dream of being pampered i guess.

i need a break

Oh my god.
I'm so tied up.
So tired.
JUST WANT TO SLEEP!

I have been busy preparing my attachment's document with Disney.
Rushing 5 projects during the holiday.
It is pretty tiring, turning up at school like 10am and the projects can dragged till like 6pm or even later.
You are lucky to have to do a project a day but usually it is cramped like 2, 3projects in a day.

I went to Malaysia High Commission yesterday.
Fuck.
I can only describe it this way.
It is at some ulu pandan place that I have to cab there during the peak hour.
I was there at 9am to 4pm.
Waited for 7hours to get my passport renew.
My bloody god can?
GRRR.

At least one good thing.
I burnt a hole getting a new pair of spectacles.
Earn them, spent them.
It is worth it to pamper myself with a great gift for christmas.

* It looks okay on me?*

At least tommorrow will be a relaxing day.
I'm out with clique for christmas eve partayyy. =)
SEE GIRLS!
I give up earning more on christmas day just to be with you girls.
Ain't I sweet? =D

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE.
SWWWEEEET JOY AHEAD.

Same script different cast.

Why?
It is an issue that happens every now and then.
You will spare a thought for your wife being busy and tired from school but why do you reprimand me on my part.
So what she is your beloved?
Do you hate me that much?
Seeing me in misery makes you feel better?
We have e same blood in us, yet the way you reacted to me is so indifferent.
I can never understand you.
Sometimes, you are really a bitch.

I had my interview with Disneyland today.
It seem to be a fantastic experience to have my attachment at Disneyland.
But I'm not sure how it goes.
Hope I get accepted and I'll be off to States for 6months.
At least I will be able to escape from his misery.
Though I might miss his customary dinner.

School is at 8am every Monday.
School for Tuesday is usually 9am.
But I have to be in school at 8am sharp for Universal Studio Webinar.
A teleconference with Universal Studio management team from US.

Wish me luck people. I get to know Universal Studio attachment better and I get to know my interview results.

Praying hard.