pampered in a silent way

I watched Australia today. My last movie of 2008 I guess. =)
I was supposed to watch a movie for school ICA4 for my superhost.
It is to appreciate and critic performing art of our own preference of films. =)
For your information, ICA refers to in- course assessment that are tests or project that contribute to our overall grade for that module.

It was a show that lasted about 3hours.

Seriously, it’s a great show.
It is inspirational yet touching and romantic.
It deserves a high rating.

I think, I’m really a pampered child.
I received my DisneyWorld attachment package today.
This month, dad business went down, a few of his customers has financial crisis, my maid hospitalized and he and mum visited the doctor frequently this few days.

He has been earning less now, yet he has to spend so much.
I asked him for New Year clothing money and he told me all.
Yet, he still give me the money, more than sufficient.
I asked him again, can I still go to Disney attachment?
What he said touches me.
“Go ah, just go.”
“Do you have sufficient cash for me to go dad?”
“Do they need the money now? It’s ok, you want to go, just go eh.”
“Nope. Not yet. I just received the package of document”
“ Just let me know whenever they want you to pay for it alright.”
I used to want to go France for student exchange programme, going over there for 4months to study but dad said it was a waste of money but he is supportive of me going to Disney.
I’m touched.

People who speak the least did the most I guess.
People who talks a lot are too busy to do what they say.
Thanks dad.
Thanks for pampering me silently.
Though you seldom express them, but thanks for loving me the way you do.
Thanks mum for supporting my decisions, my ideas, my dreams.

dreaming of being a pamper princess

Stress.
All the projects and deadlines arriving.
Unmanageable time available between members, trying to figure out the right project directions and trying to finish 6 projects.
2 projects due on Monday and Tuesday.
God bless me man. =(
I only left with 4 weeks before exams is here.
Gosh.
Should I go back to Malaysia?
24-27 Jan.
But I'm having 6 examinable papers and the trip cut through half of my study week.
HOW?? =(

Girls love to be pamper.
Do they derserved to be pamper and treated like a princess?
I'm demanding to be pampered nowadays.
Want more compromise from others.
I think I gave in too much in the past I guess. Hahas.
=X

But isn't it nice being pampered?
Being the one who is given in by others,
having somemore to be observant of your little moves.
Having someone to care, someone to share the sorrow and joy.
Someone to make sure things are well taken for you, just want you to be happy.
Yet, not asking anything in return.
Awww.
It sound good doesn't it?
I think i'm like describing what a parents willing to do.
Hahas.
But sometimes, I do hope to they do have some be able pay a little care, attention and love to their children.
Dad is having mood swing again. =(
he is just keeping his problems to himself?
Or manupause ? (Though I know it only happens to older woman)
What i can do, is to dream of being pampered i guess.

i need a break

Oh my god.
I'm so tied up.
So tired.
JUST WANT TO SLEEP!

I have been busy preparing my attachment's document with Disney.
Rushing 5 projects during the holiday.
It is pretty tiring, turning up at school like 10am and the projects can dragged till like 6pm or even later.
You are lucky to have to do a project a day but usually it is cramped like 2, 3projects in a day.

I went to Malaysia High Commission yesterday.
Fuck.
I can only describe it this way.
It is at some ulu pandan place that I have to cab there during the peak hour.
I was there at 9am to 4pm.
Waited for 7hours to get my passport renew.
My bloody god can?
GRRR.

At least one good thing.
I burnt a hole getting a new pair of spectacles.
Earn them, spent them.
It is worth it to pamper myself with a great gift for christmas.

* It looks okay on me?*

At least tommorrow will be a relaxing day.
I'm out with clique for christmas eve partayyy. =)
SEE GIRLS!
I give up earning more on christmas day just to be with you girls.
Ain't I sweet? =D

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE.
SWWWEEEET JOY AHEAD.

Disney Attachment.

Wow. It has been awhile since I blogged.
So busy.
Every week, there are projects meeting, icas, tutorials to do, lectures to attend.
I'm so exhausted.
Everyday I go to school, the only thing in my mind is to go home quick and sleep. =X

2 ica next week. Again.
Written for human resource management and lab opera operation ica for hotel operations this time. =(
I haven't did any revision at all!
Help!!

I'm going for my Disney attachment.
6months in United States, Orlando.
I'm leaving on 28th March 09 and coming back at 2nd October 09.
Anyone celebrating farewell for me?
Or early birthday celebration?
My birthday is stuck half way through my attachment. =(

I'm starting to worry a little.
Never been away from home for so long.
I'm a spoilt little girl that have to learn to be independent.

Same script different cast.

Why?
It is an issue that happens every now and then.
You will spare a thought for your wife being busy and tired from school but why do you reprimand me on my part.
So what she is your beloved?
Do you hate me that much?
Seeing me in misery makes you feel better?
We have e same blood in us, yet the way you reacted to me is so indifferent.
I can never understand you.
Sometimes, you are really a bitch.

I had my interview with Disneyland today.
It seem to be a fantastic experience to have my attachment at Disneyland.
But I'm not sure how it goes.
Hope I get accepted and I'll be off to States for 6months.
At least I will be able to escape from his misery.
Though I might miss his customary dinner.

School is at 8am every Monday.
School for Tuesday is usually 9am.
But I have to be in school at 8am sharp for Universal Studio Webinar.
A teleconference with Universal Studio management team from US.

Wish me luck people. I get to know Universal Studio attachment better and I get to know my interview results.

Praying hard.

misunderstanding, i guess.

It hurts to care.
Maybe gemini are like these.
Those who hate you, are your friends and those who love you are your enemies.
I don't know what I can do.
I am exhuasted with my limitations.
My time, my rest, my school work, my money.
Seeing the way you are, it hurts us.
It hurts me more because I go through it before.
TRUTH HURTS.
You want to get over it?
You must have an open mind.
You are thinking for him, who is thinking for you my dear?
You must be receptive and not cope with the sorrow yourself.
Maybe you are still not ready to give up on it.
Maybe you are not ready to get over.
When you want to get over.
Seriously want to, den let us know.
You must be ready to accept all those cruel facts or hide those sweetness somewhere for a new lease of life.

I'm your friend.
I won't abandon you.
Just don't want to be seen as a bad person from your perspective.
It's harsh.
But thats the fastest and hardest way to recover.
I'll be there when you need me ba.
Anw. I care and love you.
Jia you ba.

I have to do my tutorials, my speech.
I haven't do a single thing.

I'm a daddy girl

I had to work OC(outside catering) last saturday at 8am.
Met up the rest for breakfast at 7am thus I have to wake up early. =(

It was raining heavily the moment I stepped into the bathroom till I was about to leave home.
I woke daddy up at 6am asking him is it ok that he can drive me to the mrt station and he agreed.
It was just like I was younger, Daddy never reject to send me school whenever it rains.
Ya, I'm a pampered child. But I love the love he showered on me. =)
Fyi: my area does not have any shelter to the bus stop and I'll be totally drench walking out even with an umbrella. That was how heavy the rain was.
So pandon me for being spoilt. =D

Usually dad wakes up about 7.30am for work and he woke up early at 6.20am to drove me out.
He found an umbrella(my place usually misplace them =X), he passed it to me though it is big enough for the both of us but he uses newspapers to shelter himself while allowing me to use the whole umbrella. =X

He even walked over to the passenger door and unlock the door for me before proceeding over to his driver seat where it can auto unlock everything. =(

When we arrived at khatib mrt station, dad drove very close to the car in front so that I can alight within the shelter. Then he had to reverse the car in order to go leave.

It's so sweet of him la.
It may be just a dad's instinct to take care of his little daughter, but these simple gesture do warm my heart in the cold morning.

AWWWW. I'm dependent on him.
I even claimed the buying of my shorts($60) only from him though I bought a jackt($100) because I didn't want him to spend much on my purchase but he gave me $20 more. =)

How?
I wanted to go Orlando(US) for attachment.
6 months in Disneyland or 4months in Universal Studio?
I already miss home when I attend the briefing for disney, looking at the forms. =(

Disneyland has better infrastructure with their own apartments within Disney, wireless available to keep in touch with people, transport within the place so that I can get to work free and convienently.
We get to travel the 1st week.
My clique company(5 people), only shuhui is available.
Part time working and study once a week with Disney and a major project to be completed.
I can receive 3 certificate in the end.
But Dad has to cough out abt 15k and loses about 7k in the end.

Universal Studio, spearhead of SWR(Sentosa World Resort aka Intergrated Resort) and they may offer job vacancy after your graduation to work within the SWR.
But we have to live with apartment find by the travel agent, not sure if there will be wireless available, have to make our way to get public transport to work.
It will really leave me being very independent.
But the clique company, all will be going.
So it may be fun after all staying with them for 4months. =)
We can have sleepover party every night.
We receive a certificate from Universal Studio.
Continue our other 2 months attachment with a local company.
Lost of about 4-5k for Universal Studio.
Thus, there will be more exposure to 2 different attachment and earn back some cash for the lost in Universal Studio.
2 different attachment may be value add to your resume.

I will miss home, but I want to be independent. =X
People..any idea? Give me some ideas and suggestions.

I had e pain, i go through it before.
I can't say it's worst.
I can't say I'm fine now.
But I'm better.
I was trying too hard to make you feel better I guess.
What I did seem the wrong things.
Because you are sinking deeper.
It hurts to see you like this.
You deserve better.
I will leave it this way.
Shan't say anything more.
Somethings you can't prevent someone from hurting unless one ungergo the pain themselves.
Then they will truely understand.
No matter what, I care and love you.
We'll be there for you dear.