Freedom Writers

Hahas..Though I post twice today, I really don't have much to do and I wish to share this movie with you. It has been a long time that I wanted to watch Freedom Writers in 2007 March. When it was first released, I remembered someone promised to watch it with me. But I cannot remember who la.So in the end I didn't manage to. But thanks to De wei, he managed to get the movie for me.

I have been busy all these while. But today, I finally able to watch it today. It is definitely a great inspirational movie.

It is about a young lady teacher, wanting to teach and help students. The lady came from a good background and those students are leading their lives in fear, wondering each day will they get killed by a different race. She not only taught the students well or giving them sufficient attention but she wants to make a difference in their lives and be their changing point.
If anyone interested in the movie, let me know eh..hahas. But I am truly inspired by that movie.

After watching this movie, it reminds me about what Elinda Gan ( my international cross cultures studies lecturer cum tutor cum my course coordinator) said. There is this girl in my course, she was ran down by a car on her way to school. It was pretty shocking to me. She might not be even be 18 but she is lying in the hospital in critical condition.
While I was typing this entry, Sandy(my classmates plus jogging partner) told me, the girl who met with the accident passed away.

It held me thinking. What if it happened to me as well?
(My dad said this year isn't a good year for me and ask me to be more careful.)

Kim's Philosophy :
Life is too short to lead your life worrying about what will happen tomorrow.
Be it an outing, a hug, a kiss, an apology, a word of encouragement or things that you want to say, don't postpone anything because you think you can do it with that friend, family or that special someone of yours.
The person(s) might no live long enough to experience or hear it.

Though sadness, sorrows and disappointment are bound in lives.
But what about happiness, bliss and hope that are there by your side every moment?
You may be angry with your friends,with your girlfriend or boyfriend or with your family member.
But they are the one that are there that support you when you are in your darkest moment, when you are lost.

Give it your best shot in whatever you do.
Be it your passion.
Be it your studies.
Be it your friendship with your friends or your relationship with your family.
Be it your love.
Be it your hobbies.
Be it your belief.

Just try, do your best, your 100%.
Then there is no regret in your life.
Just be glad that you did your best.

Anyone can bring me out and have dinner or picnic under the stars?

Third day.

School was alright today. All the three lecturers are pretty nice and interesting. I think wednesday will be a good school day. =) I saw Lydia, my northland senior from yldp in school!Hahas.I have been seeing her for quite a few times already.

Today is the third day of school and I am late. I set my alarm an hour late without realising and I slept a little longer thinking, beliving that I won't be late as my second alarm will be ringing soon. Great way of starting off a bad day isn't it? I had my cheek knocked against the fridge in the morning, has my knee knocked against the seat in the canteen, I have a long scratch made by my lecture notes and lastly, I had my tumb smacked in between while opening my gate when I'm home. Well, the tumb bleed.
I thought I wasn't that injuries prone for a few days but the "disease" is here with me again. Argh.

Oh ya, I walked past "The theatre for the arts" in school today and there is a photography exibition. For those who knows me, they should know I love photography. So i joined. With the company of Shu Hui and Sylvia too. It is a pretty slack club that only meet once a month. Hahas. I'm so bored of not having anything to do during weekdays.
Now, I'll be jogging on Tues and Weds in school and maybe working on weekends eh? For those who want to date me out, feel free to ask.
Syl, MJ and I wanted to watch Hansel & Gretel today. Though I was keeping the girls company as horror isn't really my cup of tea but the storyline since pretty good so I'm fine with it. But, it was an unlucky incident again. Syl has work at 6pm and the movie is at 5.30pm. Great. So end up, we were slacking at AMKhub.
I want to watch " Nim's Island", it is a little fairytale like.Anyone free?

Though, I didn't get to watch any movie today, but i'm watching "Freedom writers" now. The movie has been awhile but it is a great show. I shall talk more about it when I'm done with the movie..=)

Tuesday.

I'm home early today again.
I reached home about 6.30pm I think. Well, I was supposed to meet Gene for dinner but he was sick so we didn't manage to go.

I was so tired this morning that I just wished I could sleep a little longer. But I was woken up by pain in my tummy. I was wondering how did the pain come from? And I realised I didn't have my medicine last night, no dinner and no gastric medicine to coat my stomach I guess.=X
Bad memory.
First lesson today was also my first french lesson. I sat at a corner of the room and did not talk to anyone much. =X Yea, I know it was quite unlike me but I don't have anyone I know in the same class as me. I learnt A-Z today and a few simple sentences. I don't have anyone to check is my french pronuciation correct unlike Min Jia, Sylvia and Shu Hui which, all of them are taking Japanese together.
Then, Sylvia,MJ and I went to canteen for lunch. The gastric pain still persist.

The lectures for retail studies and international cross cultures management were as usual. Not very entertaining but still alright to get over with.
This sem, there are many exchange students. There is about 2 in my some of my classes.
Some are from Germany, Finland, France and a few more.
Thanks MJ for the company after school. =)

I realised that it has been so long since I went home early.
In primary school since primary 4 or 5 my dad no longer picked me home from school and I'll go over to my besties place to hang out.
In secondary school, I was very involved in netball and student council which I stayed back in school till late.
In poly, I used to be very involved in netball, busy with school work or meeting bf.
But now, I feels empty.
Hahas..My dear friends out there, please date me out or makes plans with me k?
Ask me out for a movie, a meal, an exercise session or a study session..anything k?
Date me out..=)

School started

Midnight, alot of people asked me why the broke up was so sudden. Well, I can't really explained why was it that sudden. I'm pretty tired of answering that. I also which to know it too.
But I'm very grateful to all those people who were so concerned and worried about me. Many talked to me, encouraged me and tried to cheer me up. I;m thankful for all your effort. =)

The holiday has ended, back to school was crowded. I never realise there was so many business students. The walkway, the canteen, the foodcourt are all packed with people.
Today lesson was 9am to 1pm had an hour of application for resort management and another hour for finanacial accounting only so in the end, we ended the school at 12pm. Well, i guessed first week is always the most relaxing week of the semester. I wanted to watch Superheroes quite awhile so I keep pestering Min Jia and Sylvia to watch with me while Shu Hui had to keep her boyfriend company and Peiling has her FB to attend. Min Jia and Sylvia were so nice, the movie is only available at Cineleisure and they accompany me all the way to town to watch the movie. =)
The movie was a little lame but funny. So it wasn't horrible, pretty entertaining in some ways actually.We even bought lover combo and a pack of twister to watch.=)
Here goes my list of meal. Breakfast: milk. Lunch:Some popcorn, twisters and sweets. Dinner: pending. Though I want to lose weight, but eating junk food wouldn't help much eh..hahas.

Well, seriously. I'm not used to getting home this early. It is like once school is over, there is nothing else that I can do. No idea where to go.It just feels empty.
The whole day, memories come and go again. The girls try their best not to make me think of him.But it just surfaced.
Give me strength, the strength to overcome this phrase.

Harder than I thought.

Last night, was the first time I could sleep well. Maybe it was due to the fact it was the first time him and I could really talk like normal.

I went shopping with Shu Hui and Min Jia today. I didn't manage to see much things that goes to my liking. Bought 1 top though unlike the other 2, hahas..They bought quite alot more. For today, I had 3 scallop for lunch + 2 mouth of porridge and 5sushi for dinner.

I'm lucky that I have the girls to keep me company in the day. It was hard to not think of him.
We shared so much memories that I can list out whenever we go. Ouch! Going home alone was a terror. Thoughts of him keep surfacing in my mind, it seem like there is no way I can keep them away..It is sending me to tears soon. Help, any instant remedy for the pain in me?

Still

Just came back from dinner at Ah yat seafood though we ordered 6 dishes. I only ate few mouth full of rice and a bite of the other 4dishes. Not having much appetite. Only ate more of the prawns. Hahas..my favourite crab, i didn't really touch much. Just 2 of the claws, I didn't even touched the whole spincer.

Well, seriously after I got home from his place today, I don't wished to be at home. I wanted to go out badly. Luckily, I have very sweet siblings. My brother drove my sister and I to safra to play pool and they some how seemed to give me some advantage while playing it to cheer me up.
The pool session was paid by my dear brother too. =)

While playing, I received a message from him. I thought he wouldn't say anything about the morning when I was there.At least he said something. He said he was thankful for the gift I gave him and appreciated my effort. Well, if it does makes him smile, it worth the effort.

Hope those food and snacks could last him awhile..that the most I can do eh..=)

The day.

It has been about a year since I last blog. But the feeling of expressing is good.Last night I slept at 5am but woke up at 10am. I was feeling tired but I could no longer sleep.My sister, who was very tired yet woke up to drive me to bring the things over to his place.I'm grateful of her effort. When I was reaching, guess what? I heard the song bleeding love on radio. Great.

That was the least I need. Though when I arrived, I was scared to go up though I already decided not to hold on. I teared alittle while walking up but was fine when his dad opened the gate.His dad smiled at me. The way he behaved is like the usual ways he see me in the morning telling me that he is still in bed. It makes me wondered, it is pretty sudden isn't it?
I woke him up in a different manner as how I used to do it. As usual he was reluctant to wake up but I managed to have him read the letter I wrote yesterday.I was wondering how he feels but there is no way I can look into his eyes. He didn't say a word when he is finished. So, I had him sit up, give him a hug, a goodbye kiss on the forehead and tells him to take care of himself. I smiled to him saying that I hope to see him soon telling him. Hope he'll keep those things somewhere and it doesn't end up in the bin. I hope those food that I bought at least able to substain his hunger for awhile.

Telling his dad goodbye isn't easy, his dad makes me feel like crying. I cried once i'm back in the car, I told my sister, ain't you proud of me? I didn't cry there. The journey home was terrible. I kept crying because there are so many songs remind me of him one whole chain of our song on my mp3 shuffle list. Well, I was reprimanded for using the car for too long and feels abit of lost now.

Will it get better? It definitely will.

Now.

Things has been going on well for 6mths but it ended abruptly without any sign.

I thought it will be able if you work hard, but it is never a one side affair.

It needs two hands to clap so if he doesn't wants you, no matter how hard you try, you won't be given a chance.

Well, he explained things to me though 3 different version each night.

Well, it comes to such an end not only due to him i guess..once again. It needs 2 hands to clap.



But today, i finally get it.

Thanks for my parents, my sister, lina, and those girls by my side.

Thanks dan, for listening to my cry the whole day and have e courage to do that call for me.

I know it is pretty shocking having them seeing me cry because I never wish to let anyone see me crying.



Though this is the hardest i have to get by. I can do it.



Well, i will be seeing him later to pass him stuffs that was meant for him.

Maybe it will makes me letting go easier.